post x'mas weekend

Sat 27/12 went to play strt soccer wif my AHSNCC guys ~
long time no see all, was damn fun can.. even Alan Tan appeared =x
this time round, i finally played well according to My standards
unlike in the past, i only imagine but not execute...
this time, with confidence i played so mucch better
its also thanks to playing with army NSOTS buddies thats why
in fact everything about me is with more confidence nowadays ^^

anyways, the finale of the soccer session was hilarious
derrick that pundeh -> he kicked the ball to the top of tree !!!
we decided to "borrow" the scouts' long poles, extended it,
and then after at least 30min and several attempts.
we Finally "poked" it down. hehe NCC ftw
we even joked that its team building hahaha
it was fun laaa, though we really looked like idiots stealing fruits =X

after which i went over to Bugis Kinokuniya
wanted to buy some books. investment books
then im reminded of Jess when i see Twilight at e entrance
(she asked me to listen to her new blog song, & i chanced upon her 'wish')
so i decided to fulfil her wish somehow~ lolx
and was intending to jsut get 1 bk initially but had no membership

in the end i made a wise calculation and thought with 3 bks rite..
i wud pay the original price of 3 for the bks PLUS membership
membership for a year that is. and thats not bad
considering if i buy investment books every month,
even at 10% off it will amount to/greater than e subscription fee itself
so, yeah, thot that would be nice, + my family / frens can use too

sadly my leg was freaking pain after walking around esp after soccer,
so didnt have dinner wif Jess and Kah Seng. lol
anyways end of the day haul:
1) Twilight : The Complete Illustrated Movie Companion
2) Rich Dad's Guide to Investing by Robert Kiyosaki
3) Secret of Millionaire Investors by Adam Khoo & Conrad Alvin Lim

Phase 1 was concepts.
Phase 2 now -> concepts + more concepts with some technical

working towards a better future~

temper

omg, i just saw my temper reach new levels
not become hotter of cuz. slightly better in fact

simple incident, with some disappointing factor
can be dissolved within 1 minute. im pleased with that
especially when theres that little bit of pride in it
haha im a guy after all, but well pride is nothing
nothing without a calm mind. omg im like a monk =/

its good to know, sumthing which pricks me so suddenly somehow,
is discounted as nothing the next second & positiveness follows.
nah who cares anyway.. i own time own target carry on
cultivating good temper, or try to.

New Year is coming !

omg, within days year 2008 will be comin to an end!
what a remarkable year. it has been a turnaround for me
this very year i ORD from NS, and started work in June
it marked sumthing which is damn obvious, adulthood

yeah though i may still act like a kid at times, but
ppl do change. it took me 3 mths to sort out,
to sort out what someone couldnt do for almost 10 years
yes: the power of finance. or simply said, money
although as of now im not super adept, i can feel it
im so getting near to the controlled finances and closer to my dream
nobody knows what issit anyway... hahaha

time to read up on finance/econs since will be studying
in half a yr's time that is. and for now i live the life of a cleaner
in Cashflow context that is... not that many ppl will understand haha
i will live fullest my life at the btm lvl for once i shoot up in "grade",
there will be no turning back. cuz i have Strength, and control

i told myself and some others: i'll either be broke by Christmas or alive
i am alive, and i can breathe a sigh of relief.
the first pot of harvest is always the hardest, and i tasted it
first hand experiencce the thrill and excitement of "investment"
nope im not addicted. as mentioned the first startup is always hardest.
i hope to find exponential solution after more research =x
now im still alive and going slow and steady...
the verdict will be out by end May. hope i have positive results
if profit can be 20-30% also good enuf le..

maybe for now this is the way i look at things.
i have an avenger mindset. but is well-controlled enough
i am half fucked lower class office pay. sad but true
i will place a huge gamble so called high risk...
inputs where ppl see, they "wah so much"...

i am different. i know im a cautious person
but yet ive learnt ... i will risk to get out of "low" zone,
i have nothing to start from maybe, but if i get sumthing...
if i get sumthing... it will be big returns. watch me grow
& from there it will be much easier. risk management they call it


as for other matters: hope i will continue the way i are
LOL that song, wahahaha
baby if u strip u can get a tip cuz i like u just the way u are
no link -.- what talking me ...

and i look forward to MORE changes in 2009.
perhaps these could be my wishlist for the new year:

1) reach pot of 5k-10k asap. b4 i hav to surrender some to study fees -_-
2) make more frens and be a better fren
3) find someone(my sisters all pressuring me ><,
elder sis say must make her new table worth it.. wth)
nah dun care about point 3, will come at some point i am confident.

4) tackle the very issues that haunt me -> im strong enough
5) continue "my way of the ninja" LOLOL watched too much naruto


and yes jess your new song at ur blog is nice. send me when free
time to turn in, tml soccer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
live life to the fullest =)

Congrats, Jess

Happy for Jess for doing well in the exams~ ^^
well done xiao mei haha im proud of u

Ex-Maple Guild gathering.

Finally met everybody, Eva, Foonie(Sally), Soya(Doreen), Wendy
and Jess too came to meet up wif us...
kinda wierd, all girls, one guy (me) and i nvr meet any of them b4
except for Jess la, but see her twice, on sat and sun, also wierd

Usually im quite quiet, maybe usual click know each other long
but today im damn talkative and disturbing (to jess la who else)
end up she bully me the other girls alsso join in laugh at me T_T
haha, anyway that's how i am usually in my lunch grps,
or in the office, ns frens, or sec sch frens (close ones)
more outgoing and talkative and spontaneous that kind
haha i bet xiao mei also wonders why i so talkative today.

anyways, we went to MOS burger makan.
Doreen and wendy the 2 sisters were like .. shy?
expected and understandable though, first time meet online frens
end up they had to sit different seats cuz their parents around =/
but ok la, at least we all met up and talk talk a bit.
sad though the sisters had to elave earlier and no "guild photos"

After which we spend lotsa attempts to take pics after dinenr LOLx
and jess had to go around 9, so Eva, Sally and me proceeded on
Foonie drove Eva around the notable hot spots of singapore
namely the buldings along Singapore river and Clark Quay
We also went to the marina barrage, very beautiful and windy~
and then and then also around geylang -_- the good side and evil side
lol just drive thru though... haha & they were like, teasing me on e car =X

Anyway, overall its good to meet everyone, for the first time
and i hope its not the last time. hope eva can come SG again
and we can plan a more detailed gathering then
haha dunno when will that be though...so.. as the sayign goes

See how ba...
LOLx

how weird is wierd?

lolx so far only 2 have come forward to correct me
its spelt WEIRD not WIERD, which i have a tendency to
lol thats weird by itself hahaha.

Ex-Maple Guild Gathering

have been trying to arrange a guild gathering
Members: my ex-guild members in maplesea bootes
my guild Army~ lol its first attempt!
haha trying trying trying! Gosh planning is hard
no choice, who tell me to be the guildleader =X


unfortunately the schedules clash and cant help it
hopefully eva can join us after dinner. chit chat a while also can
i mean, its such a rare occasion, should put in some effort rite?
hopefully all goes well, see how it goes ba. =X

*update: ok its either sat or sunday.
if sat eva can come after dinner she will do so then we meet after dinner
if cannot then sunday, then i try gather ppl.
short and simple. =)

A Wierd Dream

I dreamt of my best ever dream in my whole life thus far
it had to come at an unlikely and sudden timing. .
after what happened and nothing related. yet i dreamt.

u see. Fryday nite, went singing @ partyworld with my frens
colleagues, but i call them frens. ate flu medcine + 2 paracetamol tab
then drank beer like soft drink~ K.O-ed towards end of session
misplaced my specs sumhow , nvr lost handphone or wallet though

so there i was, woke up with a bit "heavy head"
need to buy specs again,
need to followup soccer stuffs,
need to fret spending money jsut after payday,
need to reject going out that day wif Rud and all,
need to rest and recuperate.
need to plan other stuffs for the weekend.

yet out of nowhere i can like.. suddenly dream of her...
wierd isnt it. and super unlikely. so i wondered why

I dreamt of her. she seemed to never evade me now.
i can look in her eyes and she smiles at me all the time
maybe shes notice i changed sumhow? nah couldnt be
how could she know... i thot to myself (dream mode)

dreamt i actually had a good day out with her..
i was in disbelief yet ecstatic about it?
she fell down and injured her toe,
and i helped her bandage with utmost care
she actually turned & hugged me later? i tio stunned!

ok its just a dream. Real dream, v.distant probabilities.
every freaking bit seemed so real. i woke up intrigued.
but its impossible lolx. i know it. no way could be.
my mind have already shut the possibilities.
just that i found it damn wierd.

Anyways, after that dream, i never felt i lost any thing at all
i made a similar specs back, $130 for my specs
a tight budget for study funds means less money for clothes,
specs almost spoil again after sunday soccer...
NEW specs, tio zham in the face and almost cui the specs.
yet my heart was at peace. , and enjoyed my weekend a lot

Omg... i cant believe i actually can share such stuffs liao
think ive really changed... G_G

Will of Fire

Watched Naruto Shippudden 86-87
was touched by it sumhow.
and i cant wait for the next episode!
when i see Naruto master the skill.
Fuuton Rasen-Shuriken. and and, the music
v inspiring one. dunno how to describe =/

probably like how jess will get excited by her dramas,
like how ric will get excited at progressing in wow -_-
like how kids get excited at getting their fav toys.
that was the exact feelings i had every episode i watch

im really a nerd perhaps, a one-show person.
i nvr really watched bleach, or DMC, or sum other anime
but can follow Naruto , week in week out.
(ok i also watched Nana and some animes before)

sumhow, tis anime Naruto is really power.
if u read/watch closely, theres so many things to learn
and to me, its a little "literature" in anime action at times.
Shikamarus godly sia his planning. no joke.
undying opponent, his answer is seal forever in forbidden grnd

Naruto have evolved as well! Using his KageBunshin to great effect
instead of mass creations of clones, he used selectively now
and if 2 cannot, he use 3, then 4, then 5, and learn weakness/info
v powerful loh. and hes probably one of few who can create many clones

argh im talking too much anime stuffs who ppl probably wun understand.
i just cant resist. pardon me =X

Life is a Roller Coaster?

i believe tat life is like a train/rail/rollercoaster ride
its filled with ardous danger, and uncertainty at turns
sometimes its shiny, yet sometime its rainy,
sometimes its windy, yet sometimes its stormy

Ronan Keating has this song called..
Life is a Rollercoaster..
and the lyric goes as follows,
Life is a Roller Coaster just gotta ride it..

very true indeed. it gets me thinking
i am my own train now, been thru darkness already
its over, i see mytrain course going towards light
yet maybe some frens train is still blur, dark & gloomy
often i ask: "how can i help?" hw to reach out?
especially when im manning my own train..

lolx the following may be a little bullshit......
but hey its my thots can...
i loved Naruto this anime series. i like his mentality
(even though he may be a baka at times)
and i should learn to do a "Kage Bunshin" like him
(clones which shares the same potential and has chakra)

i decide that i need to do a KageBunshin in order to diversify
each clone which carries my chakra(energy),
will be one loyal passenger along my frens train
be it thru sunny times or rainy days, darkness or light
at the very least if help is needed i can be there to help

i ask myself: wah how can this be done...
then i told myself it can be done.
simply by being stronger myself, more chakra/energy
and with stability & maturity will be able to better advise
its also a test of my micro management
how to manage relations well and of course
learn to reach out to each train.

glad to say that with regards to reaching out to others
be they frens or what, i will always try my very best
each have their own problems, some serious some kiddish
but the first problem ppl face is not opening up...
and facing it realistically. or procrastination
thats what i have observed. i am guilty of that too at times.. =X


anyways nw i think i wanna learn more. much more
hope next year comes sooner!

Secrets of Self Made Millionaire completed

LoLx just finished this book not too long ago
i took just 2 weeks to finish this book.
omg, 2 weeks for me is SUPER FAST can?
i cant believe that the usually slowreader me,
will be able to finish this book at such pace

hmm its a birthday gift from my Sister and Bro-in-law
and once i started reading it, i never stopped.
basically, i didnt waste time.
i would be seen reading on buses, breaks inbetween during work =x
at home, when waiting for the goddamn flight in World of Warcraft
(yes some towns are far and take 6-7 mins -_-)
and especially during WoW time. i fly to town and end up afk in game
and yes, reading ^^v



yah this book, for any self respecting individual who wishes to learn
not necessarily about stocks or indepth investment
but general rules of thumb. things that are logic
yes ive always believe these are all logic,
and its just the actions u do that unlocks the logic,
logic u shud and probably have known long ago.
and by reading and learning its one step taken.

Learning how to plan is always a plus point.
and even if u applied, and u dont get a good result,
for example you still dont well in investments after reading TONS
its still ok becuz as long as u know the basic rules. u are on track!

and now for the next book
Lich Dad Pork Dad. =D

The old young man

realised theres so much to planning
much more than i can imagine
but i believe i shall be well prepared
i am young, hmm, well, not too young =/
younger perhaps in looks but hopefully,
more mature in thoughts now. =x

my first test will be Nov budgetting
i aiming savings of 800 p/mth less expenses
but i want more. 900 per month. lets see how
and maybe i give myself 2 mths to sort out
an

This mth have another unexpected "cash-out"
Neo's wedding. but nvm, its once-off
and since hotel i think market rate 80 bucks -_-
80 bucks prolly can last me 1-2 weeks hahahaha
nvm, i shall be mean to myself and generous to others
that shall be my strength, one of my way of the ninja
LOL watched too much Naruto =x

gotta get back to work le
~~~~~~

Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella,
You can stand under my Umbrella,
ella ella, eh eh eh, under my umbrella,
ella ella ellla, eh eh eh eh..

Love this song by Rihanna

my umbrella of 3 years + have broken sumhow.
first bought in poly, didnt use it at all.
bought it for her only to see her come back half wet.
its too late~ i looked at her with the umbrella in my hands
was about to go over opposite TP to offer her de..
ok at least theres good intent, but its too late~
stunned i just shyed away. nvr should have.

started to use it after army. kept it in great care
somehow the handle broke yesterday..
assessed the condition - irrepairable
the "ball bearing holder had dropped out.

the umbrella - time to throw
the handmade clothy thing - time to abolish the idea,
operation its 'time" - time to step out

you are not prepared

whats the feeling of tanking something which doesnt concern u?
are u strong enough to hold thru to the end?
a white lie? the burden of knowledge?
i dont know, how about u?
'its all in the mind"
i am prepared,
you are not prepared
so.. yeah.

and yes, the indirect care program works.
being passive doesnt mean not caring i realise.
the greatest gift in giving is unconditional care and concern.
i should procrastinate less and give more

Focus!

exponential growth.
im intrigued by it. but this is finance
and im starting to get thrilled by it
i believe i will have control though

and despite a first step taken,
no followups to "its time"
shall take some action next week
meanwhile, lets settle the monthly reports..

Are We There Yet ??

and so ..
Donkey asked Shrek: Are we there yet? are we there yet?
Shrek replied: *silences.. "Dooonkeyyyy. ?!"
(with impatience seemingly getting the better out of him)

you'll be there when you see it. just a matter of when.

Its Time

time for finances to begin.
control must be absolute.
no leeways be given, no but no ifs
no possibilities of cock ups.
just straight to the plan

Operation "Its Time" has begun.

Birthday

Its late, yet my eyes arent tired
things on my mind, stirring thots
its time, it shud be.

after this bday, changes will take place
time for more money more adventures
hopefully less no-life and unpreparedness

thanks everyone for the bday celebration.

Sentosa

Alrights. Tml shall be a long day for me ^^
first up is DBS bank. yay new acocunt
finally time to put the differences aside.
past will be gone in this b'day month of mine
after b'day more actions will follow,
new changes will come hehehehe

opps deviating from plans for tml..
next up sentosa gathering with G8 branch
hehe long time no see them. missed these bunch of buddies
long time no play soccer le ~ !!! hahaha
and oh. i need to remember to buy WOW prepaid card for eric
think for this wow freak of eric its the best ever gift ba

speaking of b'day, sigh mines coming soon too
oh noooooooooo.... one yr older le ><
hmm nothing much in mind to blog
time to go wow le. nites.

Excel Power

omg im starting to turn into excel pro le
learnt some new formulas and currently expe4rimeting some
made a responsive calandar after adapting from some formulas
now u clik which month which year the calandar updates accordingly
coolzzzzzzzzzz ...... toook me 3 hrs though.

After work saw 2 sms unread
Dennis msged to jio dinner tml nite. think Jie Jie will be there too lolx
then Hadi jio sentosa with G8 on Sat. nice was thinking of outdoors~
hmm i said ok for Sentosa le but for dennis i havent replied
still need to do some small intensive research on some stuffs

what thing?? must formulate properly then finalise it and try
hahaha. so sat shud be steady ready to go le. full day gone
now left one dilenma.... wanted to open new DBS account
but Sat morning gotta go sentosa... hmm gotta sort it out.

time to do research le, hehe..

Single

lolx, was on msn with a fren
asked me whats my requirements of a girl
as in my expectations of my type of girl..
i also dunno how to answer that well

i do not have very high requiremnts to start with
but somehow i've given ppl e impression that i've very high requirements
but dun think thats true la....
and so i joked, my pretty sisters are all with their partners
left me this cui one single and lonely.
hahhaa

anyway i answered duely, and yes..
i do not have too high an expectations after all
asked me age range. i mentioned -4 to +2 yrs
common rite? then the next question was:
height? must be how beautiful?
i mentioned around same height as me? (im not very tall either)
and presentable/decent looking. a bit vague though
ahahaha and i just thot of one good answer *winkz
and have already offline messaged that fren heheh

anyway, btm line is i always see myself as not good enuf
(despite the fact i may be so much better than so many cui ones)
for example, i cannot foresee myself , just after ord, with a gf but no income.
one may say "its not just about providing" but im a realist to some extent
i realised the need to be more and more stable.

this is waht strives me on, to be a stable man, to be a good dependable guy
with honesty, high tolerance, kindheartedness as virtues.
i suppose only after i get to my deg lvl then i will consider myself slightly more eligible
slightly. lolx "see how ba" as my clique likes to say.

a new beginning.

lolx. my sis had this nick before,
brother-in-law also had this nick before
a new beginning.. so do some frens.

what does it symbolise?
for my sister and her husband, its faith
the new beginning from which they found faith in God
then i have another 2 frens, also 'new beginning'
theirs is beginning of forgetting their relationship that didnt work out
another one is new beginning, quit smoking

what about mine? hmm how shud i phrase it.
my beginning is like... after ORD, working life, like a newborn baby
leeching everything i learn in the corporate world,
and at the same time as i try to expand my circle of reach
i keep my current one and maintain a balance

"new beginning" of a lifestyle i guess. and change
change is a necessity for continuous improvement
it can be good or bad, i dunno.
for example, maybe i'll start to do badder things LOLx
like be fking bad-tempered, heck care, ungentlemanly, disrespect females,
dirty pubs/clubs, ahh beng, smoke, watch porn, childish love
Womanizing, drinking, gambling wif heavy stakes..
MAYBE. lolx. life is about choice.
I Choose to refrain from such vices in life
i dun want to be like a loser who lives so near me.
closed ones, really closed ones know who that loser is ahaha

perhaps a more fitting way to say a better lifestyle would be:
explore more chill out spots, rediscover the past fun activities
(with/without my current closest clique, not my call, its their choice)
arranging some meetouts with "long time no see" frens
chiong at work, creating new standards, improved styles
chiong at eating, enjoy various foods around
chiong at relaxing (o_0 notmuch too).

learning different gestures and inputs to conversation,
learning MNC organizational culture,
learning to plan things when freee,
learning to optimize efforts when on job

eliminating habits like sluggishness after lunch
eliminating spending for nothing
eliminating unncessary inputs to other ppl

so many new things await me,
and i wont hold back this time.

its time

yes its time~

to do what? cannot say...
brainstorming in progress =D

Reflections

sometimes in life people really think harshly of one another
especially when somethings go wrong
like how Rud flares up when in game sumthing wrong
end up the tolerance-lvl-quite-high me also flare at him..
thinking back its a little silly...

he flare up for the in game stuff
and i flare up cuz time & again i see the root problem
his temper and how he react when angry.
i think of ways for him to reply in a better way. & i share wif him
but as mentioned before. One thing i learnt sets in hard:
It is accept people for who they are.

yeah thats what Mike told me.. and i agree
and from there there was hardly any conflict from then
partly cuz ruds more into wow now...

anyways, thats just reflection.
sometimes... i mean simply purely good intention
lolx theres no bad intent from the start duhz -.-
i've discussed so many times wif mike how to improve rud's temper
funnies also got, scold him harshly also got,
almost about everyway possible

and things talked between mike and me
we try to feedback to rud himself. & he does know it too
well well, thinkk he'll improve better wif NS coming
confirm guaranteed + chop. unless he cant think.
hahahaha. anyway that's reflection

reflections, thats what improves us for the better
looking back, one just have to put his/her matter as light
that is, compared wif so many others who have it worse
and things will look slightly better
(or is that called positiveness? )

guess thats the way i wanna keep working on
improvisation for me and hopefully can rub off on others.
with improvisation comes straightforward critics & harsh realities at times
and guess not everyone's comfortable with such moves

eric saw it during our project days,
how.. in the course of project, i suggest differences.
differences that can sometimes be key changes
or sumtimes just useless ideas that can be overthrown easily
but at least this is a different dimension i give to the team
team of Eric, Gabriel and me. those were the days...

and then it came to good fren rud.
its a known fact his temper is like that.
but maybe ive tried too hard to influence positive improvements
ive tried to talk nicely, tried to use reasoning with mike as judge
tried to flare up against him(acting harsh) to give him a harsh wake-up
also no use... and in the course ... tempers rose...
in the end its better i withdraw a bit.
as long as rud know i meant well.. being the bad guy is ok wif me
(haha after one phone convo wif mike & rud, sharing of thots, alls good)

and maybe from now think i'll stick to nonchalant mode
just like the so many others who are mainly interested in their stuffs
thats a plain fact. and truth of life.
till things are better for myself, my life, and my future
till i get into the uni, till i become more accomplished in life,
till i have the rights to be really like an "experienced guy"
not in my own eyes, but in the eyes of others (thats v important)
others who knows my situation. (only 1 close fren know, not even ric)
and will thus see me in another light, for sure.
only then shud i consider being the nice guy again.
好人难做...

NonChalant

Recently not in a v good shape as i had flu and bad cough
Flu's gone (i hope) but cough is still here.
4 days and ccounting.... ><

anyway, last Sat was somehow got by, i dont know why
can say i was a little pissed when my suggestions were initially rejected
somehow felt that what i say was of no mention to anyone
always like that one... nobody is prepared for anything.
no backup plan. dun want sumthing but dun wanna contribute idea
its been like this all the time. just like biao said, go wif the flow..

My mindset is changing, and i do knwo it.
im usually the pioneer in the grp to experience sumthing.
ok maybe its cuz im in to NS first.... so ORD first
this made me "wake up" much earlier.
others are still sleeping. simply said.
and if its one thing ive learnt,
i've learnt not to be too concerned for others.
it backfires, at times, and badly

i like to observe humans and their behaviour.
in a way it enables me to understand human nature better
and usually the reactions are very much anticipated and correct
sumtimes harsh fact can be very disappointing
but i've learnt to look at it in a lighter perspective

its very disappointing to know when ur close frens,
or so called, close, may actually have a bad impression of u
(of cuz i dun mean myself la.... but someone )
say for another person... X may think one have been opinionated on him/her
but the harsh reality is that other close frens have also "commented" about X
and worse still it is remarks that are "fiercer"
one that will draw replies of "wah u very bad leh, say till like that"
and all this is thru the simple casual talks of peoples life
of course, unknown to the person - X
(i do hope i wun kena such thing. it sux. je' prefere neutral~)

i still have cough, so today went to buy herbal tea
very "Uncle" hor? lolx no choice. i wanna get fit soon
anyway at the medicinal hall i saw this thingy - "rest well"
its sumthing like an anti snoring thing...
erm... sumthing like Biore Pore Pack lol...
put at the nose while u slp and over time can clr blk nose.

of cuz i dun mean i snore la.. ><
but i thot of someone who slp and can snore as soon.
very bad condition, even worse than Lawson's snoring LOL
then i halted. "should i buy" came ringing..
"will the person appreciate?"
then i dispelled the thots. and just ask why am i caring so much for frens..
when i was sick... the only few to ask if im ok, and wish me get well...
apart from my colleagues who can see me dazed/dizzy/rednose/coughing,
they were "distant" frens. eva is one of them...

this got me thinking "wah Sebes u really cham"
everytime u try to care for a person, u get unappreciated
wrong approach, wrong method, whichever, whatever
everytime they fall down u try to help if possible
when u have ur problem, nobody's in sight.
haha. thats the world isnt it?

[Nonchalant] 's the word i suddenly thot of..
in dictionary it means
"coolly unconcerned, indifferent, or unexcited; casual"
maybe i should be learn to be like that sometimes.
jsut like Biao or Kah Seng. Oblivious to everything & unaffected

sianz talked long enough.
tata~

AutoFire shot down 0_0

Down with flu
Not just flu... sore throat too.
lots of phlegm... yucks.

i thot i could "tong" the working days just like how i did in poly
so i tong thru wednesday, and end up slping thruout the nite
tats so unlike me.... ><
and so i got up on thursday hoping i've recovered.
ended up i have the same red nose. yes as red as rudolph the red nose
so i tong thru half a day before i report sick

Thanks Desmond and Erika for helping me
really appreciated that. anyways i got MC till friday.
and here i am just woke up from a good rest and blogging =x
ARGH i still wanna settle my SAM-TC files... but nvm
i guess i'm more responsible staying at home
if not things could be worse if others caught the flu too

time to rest~
just in time to enjoy the weekend i suppose. haha

Appreciarre'-ed Moi Weekend.

Fryday just went with my colleagues to Settlers
hahaha was damn fun
thiss was quite unexpected as Shirly played punk on us
went shopping with her bf and leave us to "sianz"

anyway, we still took our chance to gather quite ok.
playyed the smacking no brainer games
Erika was the loser. hehe most of the time tio pinched LOLx
how i hope such fun activities could be organised more~

elsewwhere, today we jsut KO-ed lawson
first up was the cake combo we gave him
the candleholder was DEEP DEEP inside the cake
he almost ate half the cake then found the holder hehehehe

*evils
more was to come next~~~~
Princess Kori bought a v cute thing. the pirates barrel
stab in one of Many holes and if stab the correct one...
THATS it, monkey will jump and there u go witht eh drink forfeit!

haha i tio about 2 times... but can drink though so no prob
poor Lawson though... he tio means mixture + alch.
one wudi combination was redbull + tonic waterr + martell~
very "bu" one .. or nourishing we call it.

oh yah not to forget theres one guessing game set i lost,
i sportingly took the cup one shot gulped... then i almsot choke...
didnt expect the cup to be pure nick.... ah heng havent poured in lolx
machiam like kena wasabe choke... heng im zai..~
i still can even blogg now waddya think?

hahahaha
time to go train in wow.
die la im fking alert now how to slp????
tata~

Orange~

Yesterday was my upper-study Shirley's last day at Orange.

we had some of grp photos taken. here are some of them~

btw i realised i nvr took much of the 'zi lian' photos =/

for all the crazy pics i think i'll upload in facebook. haha
Here Goes~ :

Orange Business Services - thats my 2nd home for now!
it has to be. at the very minimum its 5 more mths i'll be there lolx.

Clockwise starting from me:

Erika, Shirley, Shamini, Joseph, cleaner auntie & Joanna

Complex Solutions Team~!
Me, Shirley & See Tiang (Kuat Siang and Benny's overseas)

Upperstudy and Understudy

Shirley aka Sir MoMo & Me

Candid Grp Shot~

And last but not least, own self taken pic of mine =x

Testing my new phone~

Ok pics out, heres the closing paragraph

Shirley - its been fun with you around. you were ever so lively

this despite the fact u had full time work, part time studies,

and on top of that, another part time work.

you are da' Super Woman~

and best of wishes in you future endeavours!

Rest assured, taking over u is Superman. Yesh me LOL

ok time to go World of Warcraft

cya~

My Way~

Always liked this song My Way by Zhang Jing Xuan
Recently grew to like the lyrics more. =)

[*Verse 2]
一直就这样, 找我的方向, 不理会别人, 奇怪的眼光
直到有一天, 我忽然发现, 梦想已经在实现
等待快点过去多少个明天, 看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握, 想信自己不怕风雨再多

[Chorus]
I will find my way, I want a different way,
After the wind and rain, there'll be a brand new day
小时候受伤有人心痛失落没人安慰, 现在遇到困难自己也要学会面对
I will find my way, I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now, no matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追, 感觉就对, I'll find my way

stage of planning. last time were thoughts, now is actual realization.
slowly by slowly, step by step
fall down? get up and move on
fall down badly? get up and apply first aid and move on
fall down and sprain/tear muscle? i'll wobble my way there.
My Way...

Thots

One week has past in my new work, slowly but surely
and sumhow im beginning to worry if i can master all in time
now my proficiency at work is at most 50% with supervision
bad, this is bad. still need Shirley (aka Sir MoMo) to teach me mthly report!
but i shudnt worry much thou... in due time i will master the trades.

suddenly feel like singing K. dunno why.
sumtimes these "sudden urges" are just unexplainable.
feel like sinign my fav song. (Count to 5 Promise Me by Cao Ge)
till now i still like the song v v much. love the melody and lyrics.
Mr Gay Chao shud produce more godly songs like that.
Bei Pan is also nice~! Mark likes that song even thou he's Filipino..
and the best thing is he understand the meanings of the songs
i was quite astonished to know too. but kudos to him for the research

------------------------------------------------------
1, Rang Wo Bao Hu Ni (one, let me protect you)
2, Rang Wo Zhao Gu Ni (two, let me take care of you)
3, Suo You De Yao Qiu Bu Neng Dang Zuo You Xi
(three, do not treat all other requests like a game)
4, Jie Shou Zhe Ming Yun (four, accept this fated destiny)
5, Yong Yuan Bu Fen Li (five, never leave each other)

* Zui Hou Yi Ge, Yi Ding Yao Shuo Ni Yuan Yi
(The last request, pls say you are willing)
-----------------------------------------------------

Love this bridge of the song. damn nice. and damn melodic
even typing the lyrics now makes my day ^^

realised i dun have much to talk about these few weeks...
maybe cuz adapting to working life and starting WOW ba.
and when ive settled down to the rhythm.
i'll be the everybody's fren just like before..

Start work at my new company~

hoho today starto work. Equant Pte Ltd.
part of Orange Business Services.. ya sumthing like that
from what i know its an IT Solutions company

the team im in is called Complex Solutions.
basically companies come to us for "approving authority"
as in we do checks and confirm its confidence level.
ok - its the technical experts i mean =x
and me? haha the Administrative Assistant for them loh

first day to work. not bad. i reported at 8.50 (suppose to be 9am)
then wait for Benny, or my "upperstudy" Shirley.
lol think wait at the reception till 9.30 liek that haha
but shes v frenly ^^ similar "type" from what i observed
and my observation is quite accurate de.

As in shes from Temasek Polytechnic too~ and best of all
what im plannign to do is what she just started to do
work and study part time lolx. this kind of ladies - i respect, seriously
i remember she even say wanna find part time after office hrs if no studies
she say wanna be SuperWomen =/
then i was like...(hahaha) being the music-lover me.
the first thot : Cao Ge's SuperWoman... the rhythm in my mind lolx
"you are my superwoman.. *music rhythm"
"an jing de zai xiang nian..wu tiao jian...(ok im going too far sry)"
nice classic song lolx.

ok at least i know i got a lively understudy for the next 2 wks
lol. and she's 1987 de - definitely no generation gap LOL.
1st Jan Bday omg. Unique date rite????
and she got a hobby that i hear liao = smile &.. "just like my sisters"
she loves shopping spree lol. but still a nice lady overall

my boss Benny is also another nice guy. v frenly
today treated us all to Jap Lunch at "He Le" (East Coast)
we took cab to and fro cuz of the rain. lolx money all he tank.
sort of a a farewell for Shirley and welcome for me
and Bennys himself leaving too. what a pity
could see that he's definitely a man of high calibre.
OH yah and the team v funny one....the hairstyle wise
all of us the hair "slant to our right side"
Benny, Kuat Siang and one more... the corporate kind...
mine also slant right ok... only the top part more spiky.
well.. im younger generation anyways. more energy about me~

haha ok shud nt keep talking about work.
go home watch 7pm TV Drama, the episode today damn funny.
its been a looong time since i watch 7pm shows like that le.
then went online played 2 goood games wif Kah Seng.
cuz mike not around rud and ric in wow....sianx
but we still play damn good games. 2nd game i was the Star ^^
my Luna show them the Light~ Own them wif 2 x Triples can...

lol then after that talk cock wif Kah Seng
that Baka, the moment i mention my "upperstudy" is a girl
his first response is "chio?" omg... typical guys loh.
then i say quite a nice girl or sumthing. he say "go jio" =/
lol Even Kah Seng he also like that. talk like the typical guy sia..
"chio = jio" this kinda mentality. lol i cant take it.
(not say want to means can jio tio just like that de what...)
if u practice what u preach then why u still single? stupid biao. baka

anyways im in no good a position to say him also.
im also a failure at expressing interest la. pui.
maybe im just dumb lolx >.<>

well hope i'll be able to learn fast and adapt
and make more frens in the office. they are all nice chaps
from different walks of life. oh yeah and my new managers French
hahah now my basic French lessons last time wun be put to waste le!

2 am's fast approaching
Time to "koon" soon liao.
Cheers to a better tml !!

Money No Enough 2

Today went to watch Money No Enough 2 at Expo funny rite?
Expo got such thing? actually is my sis church Citi Harvest.
its a joint even by Neo Studios and the church
so called a chance for families to get together..
and watch the movie together like a family =)

The screen may sux..(was too far away. but quite ok la..)
after the lights dim out the focus was clr so it sorta made up for the smaller size
somehow my dear elder sis missed out the show. she say migraine...
but she missed out the whole movie... wonder what happened...

anyways, i thot the show was EXCELLENT.
it was v touching. and i cried at the touching moments
=x i believe anyone wif feelings would also do the same
its a show meant to touch the hearts too...

yeah.. just like Jack Neo said on stage after the movie...
its not a "mainstream" kind of movie...
he felt that he wanted something more original
one that not only shows the facts and realities,
but on top of that an easily-forgotten point - filial piety/kinship
near full marks to Jack Neo. i felt his efforts were tremendous.
at least that is for me... it got me wondering how filial can i be..
for now , for the near future and the long term future...

and its not just about filial piety.. its about happiness despite poverty
its also about support and understanding for one another.
about care and concern for one another.

I give this movie a 9 out of 10.
it has everything a local movie needs...
and it has everything i need to learn from.
i suppose it would be quite pointless to say things like:
"OMFG the "jia ba liao buay" part by Hui Ge was damn hilarious"
or things liek "omg Hui Ge play bad guy and sent mother to old folks ><"

maybe its my thinking recently. some changes going on.
think it may be better if i give quality sentences.
and the following line will be quality
-> go watch Money No Enuf 2 - definitely Enough value for your Money.

Ice Skating Pic

Ahhh.. this one kope from Zeng Yi's face book lolx.

Presents... The Ice Skating Brothers~ hahaha

ice skating~

Baka me. everytime got things blog nvr post it straightaway
(i hate the editting, sumhow must do a few times then correctt format)
then in the end i end up forgetting the details.
ARGHHHHH @%^&

Anyways last sat went Ice Skatingggg..!
damn fun can? something extraordinary......

woke up at 10 am that day, slept again.
11 am, "not time yet", sleep again
12 noon "not time leh", sleep again.
1.45 pm wake up. OMG i overslept~!
Since nvr go out wif Ric and gang, so go ice skating!

met the guys we went arcade while waiting for zengyi.
(ZENGYI -> waiting for u & ur gf took 1hr + -__-)
anyways the guys played daytona. i played wmmt
sian daytona max 4 players theres 6 ppl..
nvm Maximum Tune 3 i tune up my card 760/D ^^

Then next came iceskating~~~$20 bucks
but it was money well spent luhhh..
a bit of worries as i put on the ice skatinng shoes....
its been 9-10 yrs since i last iceskate...will i make it?
end up i could balance~ nvr fall down ok...

at first it was damn cute lah... imagine this.......
all of us (7-10 ppl) clinging on to the support...
we went round the borders with support tgt.
damn fun can... imagine 1 push from the back..
all at the front will tio sabo loh

i took about 1 round, then went w/o the support
heng i can balance sia. AGILITY MAX.
butthen the sickening part wif skating is the control
i keep going faster and faster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
end up sometimes i spike tio the grnd ....
if kena "spike" i need to quick reflex use hand hold grnd
like v "wu seh" lol. the pose v smart hahaha
(actually smart cuz it enables me to balance and not fall flat)
YAH THE SPIKE IS IRRITATING. its at the front of the shoes.
rollerblades - the blades are at the back... so i got confused a lot of times.

so we play till 6pm then went for some quick 99c Sushi. cheap & good
after which we took 16 to Lido where hadios ate his dinner.
then after waiting summore(yes who else buy ZengYi n gf..)
we went Nana Thai Restaurant to makan dinner.
we had a hearty dinner with laughters applenty.

Yeah its sorta a farewell dinner for ZY as he reports to ASLC
yeah and i wish him all the best - WITH PRIDE WE LEAD

12 Lotus~

Today think got a few things to blog
Hope I remembered and mentioned all the things

Start with work ba… typical day.
Eh..not so. I woke up late! 8am lol.
So take cab… ding ding ding cash reg keep up-ping
Reach there 16.40 bucks ><

BUT im considered early cuz the rest not in.

Close shave??? Hahaha

Then the next thing is the MND STORE
WAH I REALLY “TOH HWEE” (vomit blood in Hokkien)
The errors….. omgs… JINLONG I WANT TO KILL U
A bit like last blog post but I cant hold my emotions ah !
Supposed to do A u do B, Supposed to be B u do A.
WHY ARE U SO CARELESS ONE?
Nvm.. that’s why IM here to rectify the errors…
They were found out by my own initiative one ok…
Anyways I did the IF, CountIF & vlookup checks till I almost seh ~_~

Next up is the chilling session with NSOTS guys~
At first thot a lot of ppl, meet dinner and go Double O (original plan)
End up 5 ppl (including me) and go watch movie
Might as well~ if always go Double O later ppl think I horny…
SCREW U RUGAY I KNOW U WILL REMARK IN CBOX ONE
I GIVE U A FIRST BLOOD BEFORE U SAY ANYTHING~!

Dinner nvr eat as I met them after work. But watch movie we did
I bought this cheese pasta combo thingy, not bad wor~
Firstly fill my stomach but more importantly it was cheesy!
We watch 12 Lotus. or Shi Er Lian Hua in Chinese
Would say this movie is v touching… I give it at least 7.5 out of 10
The nice parts are the deep meanings which is derived from the movie

The movie lacks in the actor/actress category… no stars….
But at least theres Qi Yu Wu (whos a hunk to most)
And Mindy Ong (quite beautiful in some of the movie scenes)
The show had LOTS of Hokkien (mainly the getai style of Hokkien singing)
And theres also quite some comical acts which got us laughing to the max.
(the part where Lian Hua wanted e hairstylist to wash Guan Yin Ma’s hair)
* The statue of cuz lolx. and the hairstylist? DAVID GAN ROFLMAO

Ok heres the summary:
Her dad remarked: “12 Lotus, its meant for adults....

u know e meaning of e song meh?”
She replied “I’ll know it when I grow up”
Omg. The life story of a girl whoa aspired to sing the 12 Lotus as a child
She in turn experience the trials and tribulations just like the song

As a child suffered abuse by father who caned her
When she grew up & earned thru getai, her father takes all her earnings.
Her father gambles away all her hard earned money.
In came this man who looked like a saviour. But hes a cheat.
Father “gambled” the daughter away wif debts
The “saviour” acts in an act to make the trap works
The bad guy succeeds in his trap and get the girl. Not just her.
THE WHOLE FUCKING GANG
(this part I see liao I damn emo)
(when all was seemingly good, everything avalanched.)
(VERY EMO)

The girl gets trapped, gets a bit insane.
Goes home, the man she wanted to be with is gone!
She went Mad, cooped herself in her house for 20 yrs
Frm perfect body to (ughhhh) body size
With getai charisma to become a getai laughing joke
It was time to move on and so her good fren Astro had his own gf
Her life was no one else but her.

(if u think that’s all im afraid I have to spoil)
Randomly met this man who suffers similar fate like her
She eventually almost got cheated/robbed by him
In the last struggle she made with the guys, the traumas flood back
The sadness, the despair, the feeling of being betrayed,
The anticipation for her mum, the abuse by her dad,
So many feelings portrayed in the one movie

(*tries to get to normal typing mode)
Watch with Zengyi, Capri, Hadi, and Li Hong.
They say they still dun understand quite some parts lol
But sumhow I feel I can empathize wif the poor girl
*not sympathise ah… empathize is the more appropriate word

Dunno why my heart just sinks for this poor lady.
Maybe im a sentimental kind of person – e rest like..wasnt affected much
When I was thinking of blog, e natural flashback was e highlites of e movie
Cud really identify some of e values & thinkings reflected throughout e movie

these cheats/baddiues ARE exactly e bastards that make me feel ashamed.
no, they shud b ashamed of their own acts. these r the heartless kias.
e kind who make me consistently re-evaluate my ability as good prospect
got me thinking "hw mature have i grown to ensure i am good enuf"
not that i doubt myself that i am good. but these kind of "bai leis" really...
they make u ... hmm ... lose confidence.

Argh I think I blogged long enuf. But for now its.
“toh yi koh lian luo lian hua” (1st lotus)
LOL the rhythm just keep ringing in my mind cant stop…
ARGH I go find job openings le
BYE BYE.

Bad Day?

Had another lobo day, sigh
Morning prepared the MND store raw data.
End up Khoo process until got “found” “newadd” discrepancies
See liao sian, how to do sia…. …@#$%^&
Then I do my own check, WTF MANS
Quite some errors, dunno what the onsite ppl doing sia

Supposed to highlight they nvr highlight,
Supposed to put baseline S/N they put NA
Supposed to key 2874 they key 2374 (example)
Omgosh the list continues on and on
And I had flu, so imagine hw fk-ed up I must have felt then

Anyways today not bad, sent about 4 Job Applications =)
Hope to get a response from them soon!!!
Yeah and tml will be meeting up wif my office guys for dinner!
NSOTS guys I mean.. Erm ok - army frens in summary -_-
Long time no see them sia

ARGH FKED UP FEELING
FK UP FLU. CANNOT THINK PROPERLY zzzzz
I go slp sua. nitez

Work ah work....

okay lets start wif yesterday, monday 11-Aug-2008
had a not-so-productive working day lol
why i say so? cuz ive processed all i supposed to do too fast
><>nd up i gotta wait for new things to come good or bad...?
i rather have some work can slowly do loh.......

oh yeah, and while doing work today, i hear something striking to my ear.
cuz got one file got user error, so Khoo and Meiling was like, on and off,
keep mentioning, like, "tat Tan Lee Wan" , check that "Tan Lee Wan" de serial number"
"so Tan Lee Wan not supposed to be this and this"
sounded so like someone.....close frens will know

ARGGGGGHHHH.. i was jsut beside them when they discussing,
I was like …. “kek” all the way? Dunno which emotion shud I use
“shud I be sad cuz the name + pronounciation reminds me of her?”
“shud I smile to myself and say: haha so similar to her name”
I think my reaction was more of the latter now
The names still striking to me but that’s about all

Anyway, Today, Tuesday 12-Aug-2008, haiz…
HAD A BORING DAY… and the reason?
Same as stated above, I was practically waiting for new things to do
But ok la… this is considered my first relaxed day in the project.

Tml im going with Khoo and the onsite guys to MND Store,
Tanjong Pagar Mrt before 9am . LOL can sleep a bit longer
YEAH mans, processing data on the spot ok....
Will be what im about – Speed, Detail, Accuracy, Efficiency
At least that’s my characteristics for now most of the time!

Also had another good long chat wif a fren
by offering feedbacks, advice, and thru the way of conversation,
i've somehow gained some insights, knowledge for myself too.
yeah, so indirectly... yeah thanks lol.

Anyway its kinda past my KO timing le
Time to say the same ol’ thing -> Good Night!