Reflections

sometimes in life people really think harshly of one another
especially when somethings go wrong
like how Rud flares up when in game sumthing wrong
end up the tolerance-lvl-quite-high me also flare at him..
thinking back its a little silly...

he flare up for the in game stuff
and i flare up cuz time & again i see the root problem
his temper and how he react when angry.
i think of ways for him to reply in a better way. & i share wif him
but as mentioned before. One thing i learnt sets in hard:
It is accept people for who they are.

yeah thats what Mike told me.. and i agree
and from there there was hardly any conflict from then
partly cuz ruds more into wow now...

anyways, thats just reflection.
sometimes... i mean simply purely good intention
lolx theres no bad intent from the start duhz -.-
i've discussed so many times wif mike how to improve rud's temper
funnies also got, scold him harshly also got,
almost about everyway possible

and things talked between mike and me
we try to feedback to rud himself. & he does know it too
well well, thinkk he'll improve better wif NS coming
confirm guaranteed + chop. unless he cant think.
hahahaha. anyway that's reflection

reflections, thats what improves us for the better
looking back, one just have to put his/her matter as light
that is, compared wif so many others who have it worse
and things will look slightly better
(or is that called positiveness? )

guess thats the way i wanna keep working on
improvisation for me and hopefully can rub off on others.
with improvisation comes straightforward critics & harsh realities at times
and guess not everyone's comfortable with such moves

eric saw it during our project days,
how.. in the course of project, i suggest differences.
differences that can sometimes be key changes
or sumtimes just useless ideas that can be overthrown easily
but at least this is a different dimension i give to the team
team of Eric, Gabriel and me. those were the days...

and then it came to good fren rud.
its a known fact his temper is like that.
but maybe ive tried too hard to influence positive improvements
ive tried to talk nicely, tried to use reasoning with mike as judge
tried to flare up against him(acting harsh) to give him a harsh wake-up
also no use... and in the course ... tempers rose...
in the end its better i withdraw a bit.
as long as rud know i meant well.. being the bad guy is ok wif me
(haha after one phone convo wif mike & rud, sharing of thots, alls good)

and maybe from now think i'll stick to nonchalant mode
just like the so many others who are mainly interested in their stuffs
thats a plain fact. and truth of life.
till things are better for myself, my life, and my future
till i get into the uni, till i become more accomplished in life,
till i have the rights to be really like an "experienced guy"
not in my own eyes, but in the eyes of others (thats v important)
others who knows my situation. (only 1 close fren know, not even ric)
and will thus see me in another light, for sure.
only then shud i consider being the nice guy again.
好人难做...