Reflections

sometimes in life people really think harshly of one another
especially when somethings go wrong
like how Rud flares up when in game sumthing wrong
end up the tolerance-lvl-quite-high me also flare at him..
thinking back its a little silly...

he flare up for the in game stuff
and i flare up cuz time & again i see the root problem
his temper and how he react when angry.
i think of ways for him to reply in a better way. & i share wif him
but as mentioned before. One thing i learnt sets in hard:
It is accept people for who they are.

yeah thats what Mike told me.. and i agree
and from there there was hardly any conflict from then
partly cuz ruds more into wow now...

anyways, thats just reflection.
sometimes... i mean simply purely good intention
lolx theres no bad intent from the start duhz -.-
i've discussed so many times wif mike how to improve rud's temper
funnies also got, scold him harshly also got,
almost about everyway possible

and things talked between mike and me
we try to feedback to rud himself. & he does know it too
well well, thinkk he'll improve better wif NS coming
confirm guaranteed + chop. unless he cant think.
hahahaha. anyway that's reflection

reflections, thats what improves us for the better
looking back, one just have to put his/her matter as light
that is, compared wif so many others who have it worse
and things will look slightly better
(or is that called positiveness? )

guess thats the way i wanna keep working on
improvisation for me and hopefully can rub off on others.
with improvisation comes straightforward critics & harsh realities at times
and guess not everyone's comfortable with such moves

eric saw it during our project days,
how.. in the course of project, i suggest differences.
differences that can sometimes be key changes
or sumtimes just useless ideas that can be overthrown easily
but at least this is a different dimension i give to the team
team of Eric, Gabriel and me. those were the days...

and then it came to good fren rud.
its a known fact his temper is like that.
but maybe ive tried too hard to influence positive improvements
ive tried to talk nicely, tried to use reasoning with mike as judge
tried to flare up against him(acting harsh) to give him a harsh wake-up
also no use... and in the course ... tempers rose...
in the end its better i withdraw a bit.
as long as rud know i meant well.. being the bad guy is ok wif me
(haha after one phone convo wif mike & rud, sharing of thots, alls good)

and maybe from now think i'll stick to nonchalant mode
just like the so many others who are mainly interested in their stuffs
thats a plain fact. and truth of life.
till things are better for myself, my life, and my future
till i get into the uni, till i become more accomplished in life,
till i have the rights to be really like an "experienced guy"
not in my own eyes, but in the eyes of others (thats v important)
others who knows my situation. (only 1 close fren know, not even ric)
and will thus see me in another light, for sure.
only then shud i consider being the nice guy again.
好人难做...

NonChalant

Recently not in a v good shape as i had flu and bad cough
Flu's gone (i hope) but cough is still here.
4 days and ccounting.... ><

anyway, last Sat was somehow got by, i dont know why
can say i was a little pissed when my suggestions were initially rejected
somehow felt that what i say was of no mention to anyone
always like that one... nobody is prepared for anything.
no backup plan. dun want sumthing but dun wanna contribute idea
its been like this all the time. just like biao said, go wif the flow..

My mindset is changing, and i do knwo it.
im usually the pioneer in the grp to experience sumthing.
ok maybe its cuz im in to NS first.... so ORD first
this made me "wake up" much earlier.
others are still sleeping. simply said.
and if its one thing ive learnt,
i've learnt not to be too concerned for others.
it backfires, at times, and badly

i like to observe humans and their behaviour.
in a way it enables me to understand human nature better
and usually the reactions are very much anticipated and correct
sumtimes harsh fact can be very disappointing
but i've learnt to look at it in a lighter perspective

its very disappointing to know when ur close frens,
or so called, close, may actually have a bad impression of u
(of cuz i dun mean myself la.... but someone )
say for another person... X may think one have been opinionated on him/her
but the harsh reality is that other close frens have also "commented" about X
and worse still it is remarks that are "fiercer"
one that will draw replies of "wah u very bad leh, say till like that"
and all this is thru the simple casual talks of peoples life
of course, unknown to the person - X
(i do hope i wun kena such thing. it sux. je' prefere neutral~)

i still have cough, so today went to buy herbal tea
very "Uncle" hor? lolx no choice. i wanna get fit soon
anyway at the medicinal hall i saw this thingy - "rest well"
its sumthing like an anti snoring thing...
erm... sumthing like Biore Pore Pack lol...
put at the nose while u slp and over time can clr blk nose.

of cuz i dun mean i snore la.. ><
but i thot of someone who slp and can snore as soon.
very bad condition, even worse than Lawson's snoring LOL
then i halted. "should i buy" came ringing..
"will the person appreciate?"
then i dispelled the thots. and just ask why am i caring so much for frens..
when i was sick... the only few to ask if im ok, and wish me get well...
apart from my colleagues who can see me dazed/dizzy/rednose/coughing,
they were "distant" frens. eva is one of them...

this got me thinking "wah Sebes u really cham"
everytime u try to care for a person, u get unappreciated
wrong approach, wrong method, whichever, whatever
everytime they fall down u try to help if possible
when u have ur problem, nobody's in sight.
haha. thats the world isnt it?

[Nonchalant] 's the word i suddenly thot of..
in dictionary it means
"coolly unconcerned, indifferent, or unexcited; casual"
maybe i should be learn to be like that sometimes.
jsut like Biao or Kah Seng. Oblivious to everything & unaffected

sianz talked long enough.
tata~

AutoFire shot down 0_0

Down with flu
Not just flu... sore throat too.
lots of phlegm... yucks.

i thot i could "tong" the working days just like how i did in poly
so i tong thru wednesday, and end up slping thruout the nite
tats so unlike me.... ><
and so i got up on thursday hoping i've recovered.
ended up i have the same red nose. yes as red as rudolph the red nose
so i tong thru half a day before i report sick

Thanks Desmond and Erika for helping me
really appreciated that. anyways i got MC till friday.
and here i am just woke up from a good rest and blogging =x
ARGH i still wanna settle my SAM-TC files... but nvm
i guess i'm more responsible staying at home
if not things could be worse if others caught the flu too

time to rest~
just in time to enjoy the weekend i suppose. haha

Appreciarre'-ed Moi Weekend.

Fryday just went with my colleagues to Settlers
hahaha was damn fun
thiss was quite unexpected as Shirly played punk on us
went shopping with her bf and leave us to "sianz"

anyway, we still took our chance to gather quite ok.
playyed the smacking no brainer games
Erika was the loser. hehe most of the time tio pinched LOLx
how i hope such fun activities could be organised more~

elsewwhere, today we jsut KO-ed lawson
first up was the cake combo we gave him
the candleholder was DEEP DEEP inside the cake
he almost ate half the cake then found the holder hehehehe

*evils
more was to come next~~~~
Princess Kori bought a v cute thing. the pirates barrel
stab in one of Many holes and if stab the correct one...
THATS it, monkey will jump and there u go witht eh drink forfeit!

haha i tio about 2 times... but can drink though so no prob
poor Lawson though... he tio means mixture + alch.
one wudi combination was redbull + tonic waterr + martell~
very "bu" one .. or nourishing we call it.

oh yah not to forget theres one guessing game set i lost,
i sportingly took the cup one shot gulped... then i almsot choke...
didnt expect the cup to be pure nick.... ah heng havent poured in lolx
machiam like kena wasabe choke... heng im zai..~
i still can even blogg now waddya think?

hahahaha
time to go train in wow.
die la im fking alert now how to slp????
tata~

Orange~

Yesterday was my upper-study Shirley's last day at Orange.

we had some of grp photos taken. here are some of them~

btw i realised i nvr took much of the 'zi lian' photos =/

for all the crazy pics i think i'll upload in facebook. haha
Here Goes~ :

Orange Business Services - thats my 2nd home for now!
it has to be. at the very minimum its 5 more mths i'll be there lolx.

Clockwise starting from me:

Erika, Shirley, Shamini, Joseph, cleaner auntie & Joanna

Complex Solutions Team~!
Me, Shirley & See Tiang (Kuat Siang and Benny's overseas)

Upperstudy and Understudy

Shirley aka Sir MoMo & Me

Candid Grp Shot~

And last but not least, own self taken pic of mine =x

Testing my new phone~

Ok pics out, heres the closing paragraph

Shirley - its been fun with you around. you were ever so lively

this despite the fact u had full time work, part time studies,

and on top of that, another part time work.

you are da' Super Woman~

and best of wishes in you future endeavours!

Rest assured, taking over u is Superman. Yesh me LOL

ok time to go World of Warcraft

cya~

My Way~

Always liked this song My Way by Zhang Jing Xuan
Recently grew to like the lyrics more. =)

[*Verse 2]
一直就这样, 找我的方向, 不理会别人, 奇怪的眼光
直到有一天, 我忽然发现, 梦想已经在实现
等待快点过去多少个明天, 看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握, 想信自己不怕风雨再多

[Chorus]
I will find my way, I want a different way,
After the wind and rain, there'll be a brand new day
小时候受伤有人心痛失落没人安慰, 现在遇到困难自己也要学会面对
I will find my way, I want a different way
Nothing will stop me now, no matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追, 感觉就对, I'll find my way

stage of planning. last time were thoughts, now is actual realization.
slowly by slowly, step by step
fall down? get up and move on
fall down badly? get up and apply first aid and move on
fall down and sprain/tear muscle? i'll wobble my way there.
My Way...

Thots

One week has past in my new work, slowly but surely
and sumhow im beginning to worry if i can master all in time
now my proficiency at work is at most 50% with supervision
bad, this is bad. still need Shirley (aka Sir MoMo) to teach me mthly report!
but i shudnt worry much thou... in due time i will master the trades.

suddenly feel like singing K. dunno why.
sumtimes these "sudden urges" are just unexplainable.
feel like sinign my fav song. (Count to 5 Promise Me by Cao Ge)
till now i still like the song v v much. love the melody and lyrics.
Mr Gay Chao shud produce more godly songs like that.
Bei Pan is also nice~! Mark likes that song even thou he's Filipino..
and the best thing is he understand the meanings of the songs
i was quite astonished to know too. but kudos to him for the research

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1, Rang Wo Bao Hu Ni (one, let me protect you)
2, Rang Wo Zhao Gu Ni (two, let me take care of you)
3, Suo You De Yao Qiu Bu Neng Dang Zuo You Xi
(three, do not treat all other requests like a game)
4, Jie Shou Zhe Ming Yun (four, accept this fated destiny)
5, Yong Yuan Bu Fen Li (five, never leave each other)

* Zui Hou Yi Ge, Yi Ding Yao Shuo Ni Yuan Yi
(The last request, pls say you are willing)
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Love this bridge of the song. damn nice. and damn melodic
even typing the lyrics now makes my day ^^

realised i dun have much to talk about these few weeks...
maybe cuz adapting to working life and starting WOW ba.
and when ive settled down to the rhythm.
i'll be the everybody's fren just like before..