2 more years

tonite is a night filled with emo-tion
boxing day, i was boxed. no, i jsut wasnt prepared
i had planned, take things a step at a time
i planned 2 steps ahead, but this bridge needed 3 steps, 4 steps ahead
miscalculated, not a total failure though
at least i nvr go bankrupt LOL

anyway i looked on my ironing board(i use it as my side desk)
SIM letter... sigh, payment time is comming, sooner than i thought
last years results didnt help, i have to pay slightly more for extra units attempt
meaning? i have to get ready 2k+ for studies fee payment
miscalculation 2

guess no one can help me. but i can help myself
i have replanned my strategy, its laughable hw things can change fast
its sayonara freedom. goodbye to my sideline investment.
kai xin jiu hao?? (hokkien) hua hi dio ho?
hao ren zao si this one i knw..
i guess i will never be able to be truly happy until i reach my aim
but this aim is now further away.
someone light me up pls.. there is no one..

2 years, i need 2 more years to prep. i will be there i still believe

success!

YES! finally its over! TROC Year End Events a success!!
im so glad so glad so glad. for it was mostly our first times organising an event of such scale
of cuz as committee chairman i was doubly concerned.
i wanted things to go smoovely and no cockups
phew, and luckily that was exactly the case this 11th Dec~~

happy happy =]=] felt a sense of achievement seriously
by lunch time the crowd was already all smiles, quite due to the charade game
LOL last minuted idea that i suggest one, but it really served its purpose okay!!
which is to heighten up the atmostphere and joy and laughter to the max!!
it really did. ^^

lots on my mind.. but really shag cant think of much to pen down now.
shall repay my sleep debt as a priority
hmm what else.. nvm wake up again then update
but at least i know, these few days.. i can sleep.. smilingly.. deservedly =]

too late

sigh, seems to me ima really slow retard
seems like i'm always too late. cant help it
late for work late for sch late for everything
this time probably i'm 3 years too late
i want to be punctual just like you lolx..

gonna prepare to go city hall meet Kaka & friends @ 7am
StanChart run!! 10km casual run though haha
but suddenly feel emo-stic
sianz, ok at least this time this morning i will be on time

look on the bright side~
stand chart run.. i will highlight the text the blue SCB color~ =]

silence

finished work at 8.45!! wanted to cut at 8.30 but still late
managed to reach Bedok Interchange in time!!
carrying my hp stuffs along, i went to find the best buyer possible
li lin said somewhere at the watsons side de lane. Shes right!!
after some checks and quotes of 400-420, the eventual shop i found offered me $480!@
more than what i expected. 0.0
the lady said, if take out screen protector no scratch can fetch 480.
thus i consent to sell ~~ ^^

anyway, anyway. right after i sold the phone.
someone approached me. was about to reject by showing the "no" hand signal
but then noticed it was not credit card (dun have enuf income now anw) or insurance
wanted to get me to commit about 1.26+ daily, or 36+ mthly
but i didnt know if i was ready for this kind of commitment
its like a mini-handphone plan.. + i do donate at discretion at times in the year too
so i think and think, ok maybe a one-time donation..

so fill up and then fillin particulars, credit/debit card details.. etc
then thought hard.. about hw much to donate
at first i thought 50 bucks is good. summore the standard rate~
but then hmm nvm, maybe in charitable mood today
i donate $100 instead =X
not a lot maybe compared to others, but donate 100 means 100 less fr myself lolx

posted some details of this donation on facebook
but decided to remove the post after much thinking
do charity better not say too much, public media facebook
people who see the post may have bad or wrong interpretation
"hao lian" or "act kind".. etc etc better not.
silence is golden! hahahaha

anyway, act or dun act, the main thing is to do the action
walk the walk and then talk the talk~~~~~

patience

looking at the pic keeps me moving
listening to the song keeps me going
these problems are small, i can deal with it
new test of tolerance and patience

silence is golden perhaps
sometimes, in positions where u cant forge ahead or backtrack
the best position is to stand still (extracted from Naruto)
waiting for one move is all you need
and when i do the one move, its time to move on
big time i mean. 2 yrs, i can tolerate this

let them talk let them say
let the foul mouths stay
from the east to west
my patience is the best =)

iPhone 4

Lost my old phone last Thurs
Bought my new phone last Thurs
Found my old phone the very next day
(the cleaner returned the next day, God bless the kind soul)
Nw I got iPhone 3GS and iPhone 4!

hahaha was prepared to regard my iPhone 3GS as lost liaos
but then then, the very next day after i bought my new iPhone 4 as replacement,
the cleaner returned and somehow i got my phone back!!
blessing in disguise? well i'm not sure but i sure kind people do exist after all =)
have yet to find and thank the cleaner in person. shall do that tmr!!
now the pain of the problem is to decide what to do with my old phone...
sell away to offset my early recontract loss ($300) or give my sister use..
headache headache haizzz

elsewhere, i would have loved the concept of law of average.
but there was no averaging in EPL this weekend..!! (av. of 2-3 draws per week)
no draws!! T_T the "big money" teams like arsenal and stoke nvr draw
sigh guess my next input will be higher!! its time for them to draw lor
but well that means my next input will be even higher!
time to test my contingency money planning and forecasting and management

also spend a good 2 hrs with my assigned NKF patient together with my assigned partner
doing this (volunteer) work really keeps me on the ground lvl and keeps me in check
just a simple groceries purchase trip can involve much listening & attention paid to the patient
also one of the first few activities where i step out on my own without my buddies company
ideally i would have wished for a "everyone lets do it together" mentality though
nvm to each their own choices and pathes. lets all grow with time!

still planning something for my year-end event. must get the flow right tmr!
nominated as team leader for this commitee, it feels like a heavy load on my shoulders
given bank operations heavy load(average knock off time is 8-9pm), this certainly is xtra baggage!!
somehow i can feel the stress, dunno if its becuz of the tight deadline
or becuz i want to deliver up to expectations. to not disappoint. tough job
less than 1 mth! and we havent get the venue ready.
this must be settled tmr. and come 10.30a.m. later, i will head this meeting again
must make sure every thing runs smoovely and we go from item to item
yes i can do it. im not just adequate as planner, i shall execute my plans well too!
good leadership training for me~~ at work level. its not just some games anymore
sigh. FML. but well if theres things to be done, things are to be done..

*also added my fav English song - We Dance On to my mixpod player in blog
retarded me, took me long enough to add such a nice song!

Nice ride down memory lane..

i wonder what it is like to dream, or to have a dream..
is it the same for everyone? or not so? how will i know?
what will happen if one day the dream is no longer a dream?
will u feel finally satisfied? Or will you feel void within?
i too would like to know if one day my dream will come true.
and how will i feel then. and how can i deal with it.
anw, that being said, i myself will strive to make it happen.

anyways, cycled down to interchange H2Hub specs shop to repair specs
not spoilt, just one of the nose-bridge came out.
hahaha and it was while trying to gangbang Ben outside khakabo LOL

decided to cycle to see see my previous house. haha the wind was good, the sun's not too hot
1st stop was past my previous workplace - Orleng
my first full time job in life, spent a good 2 years there and gained valuable experience!
2nd stop was at the playground behind Swan Lake (Big Bens Cafe there)
haha it has change a little - used to be sandfilled - now its the standard flooor
next i cycled to Elite park area, another playground there
oh yes, Da Fa eatery and Lian Beng Huat provision shop is still there!!!
after all these years, its still there. Wonder if Winnie Heng, same b'day as me, and sis still stays there too?
this really brings back memories haha

Last stop was at my old house..
where i spent my primary child hood there - its nicely refurnished
okay it didnt looked as dirty as it was back then.
i remember many things of what i did then, was fun times haha
maybe thats why some people rather choose to remain a kid if possible
it ain't that bad after all either lolx

amazingly, they finally managed to build a nice running/cycling path cut through
very nice, i remember in the past i had to walk through a very narrow lane somewhere along to school - now its broad & spacious!


Alas, the wind stops blowing as nicely, and it was time for me to cycle back
All in all, a nice ride down memory lane..

她心酸, 我也是
我里面, 被沾染
我的痛, 你不知
下雨了, 淋湿透
谁倾入, 是她吗
種盆栽, 费的劲
累的很, 想发泄
难下手

话中有话

我想说的话, 想听的话
你... 看的到吗?

grow

feel happy for a certain friend of mine
great to see zhenqi working hard towards something he wanna fight for
and that that effort has been received and appreciated finally
=)

anw hope for myself to find my dream someday.
working hard to steer myself in the right path that i have planned
maybe there may be obstacles or unforseen circumstances
maybe there may be unexpected failures
but i will keep moving on and march towards it.
hve a good idea of my ideas for the next 2-3 years

comfortdelgro~ hohoho, showed yet another support line movement
prices has reached the support line from may to Oct.
a good price buy would be at 1.50, good sell price is 1.55-1.58 ;)

yeah guess thats where i'll be headed.
all rounded development and more focus on stocks and soccer
now its time to do something... time to step out a little more
little by little. little by little

我不配

fav song recently: 我不配 by Jay Chou
dunno why, i happen to like this song quite a lot
became the 3rd most listened-to song in my iPhone mp3 player
i remember after Law's birthday at hammy hse, we all went to khakabo
overnight LAN gaming i just played this song over and over (streaming)

reminded of something when i listen to the song
yes emo songs sounds nicer usually. emo songs ftw

我不配 lolx

Can't Fight the Moonlight

iPhone playing: Can't Fight the Moonlight - Leann Rhimes

lolx classic song, was one of the nice songs since the times when i was sec 2 i think.
still havent seen coyote ugly the movie. =x
OK will find the movie and watch it soon!

but you know but you know that you, can't fight the moonlight

Thinking with my heart, makes me irrational

unhappy unhappy unhappy
who could i count on when im down, i guess no one
when others are down, i try my best to be there
but seems like when im down, no one really knows or are there at all
being in the dark at times makes me understand pain & disappointment more
it makes me want to reach out to others
to understand them with sincerity, honesty
thats why i neverwanted to be negative thinker

but why does the similar feeling come back?
misunderstandings? putting in too much effort?
these teeny weeny details, which i observe, just saddens me
observing how others behave makes me conscious of the persons' possible thinking/attitude
with some guts and honesty in speech, sometimes i get to understand what they want/expect.

but why does this simiar feeling come back?
just like how Naruto chased Sasuke in the anime Naruto Shippudden
it seemed aimless, lost cause and no matter hw u try, look hard,
its never within your control.

i've learnt that more often than not, its because im affected by things that i cannot control
is it wrong to assume responsibility for things happened? or just shun away
is it wrong to jio buddies whom you can jio out to chillout/study/chitchat/talkcock/together?
a simple concept of good buddies/friends
is it wrong to put in effort to improve a friendship with anyone?
i mean if say, my clique buddies put in effort to jio things, i will reciprocate & appreciate the gesture
i apologize if i did anything wrong..

in the past, i probably was a more non-chalant guy, more aloof maybe, and i can still be.
but recently one good chat with my dear Elder Sis had me reflecting
she said something like: "even if you care, you must be proactive and take initiative to do so"
thus, even given my crazy schedule, i will still put in effort to fork out some time, do some catch-up, chit-chats, coordinate things etc, to improve relations with everyone.
not on purpose but by willingness.

my strong stand is that as long as its worth fighting for i will give it a shot
if it is something as worthless as a hi-bye, then would i even be troubled by it?
being mindful of other people's point of view, i am usually laid back and try as much to not be the thick-skinned or dominating person
but maybe it is this inquisitive nature in me that worsen things at times.

if i see a problem, i want to find out the real problem.
i wanna seek out what is the underlying root/cause and seek to solve, clear it, not avoid it
unfortunately, i face a select few of these type of problems in life that have been my agony.
i ask questions, sometimes difficult questions. but all these contributes to understanding the problem
it is these questioning, feedbacks that will lead me to understand more.
with it comes improvement. logically its a feedback system
but again, i have failed, to take into account the 'human element', sometimes only thinking the "what should be, by right" logic


Such irony, one mp3 song played when im here blogging, techno/dance song lolx
Listen to your heart by DHT
"Listen to your Heart, theres nothing else you can do"
"i don't know where you're going, and i dunno why"

I followed my heart, and i ask myself why.. and i know the answer...
but maybe it doesn't matter anymore..
1) i took a step forward to knock on the door,
2) no one's there to open/respond
3) i will take a step back

Thinking with my heart, makes me irrational

negative but positive

2 past weeks of negativity and pessimism
can't help but consume lousy thoughts
trying so hard to dispel this loser feeling,
but things havent been going all too well

a few things to worry about that got me moody
and a few things to add to frustration and helplessness
but of course if i look from a negative pt of view,
then nothings gonna look right don't they??
so its time be back to my usual self!!

i sincerely/remotely apologise to those who may have been affected in this past emo week of mine

My boss on IM:
LEE Patrick SCE/GCS [11:42 AM]:
You are hardworking guy and a good guy. So, with luck n careful thinking, you can succeed.

If it ain't just pretty or fanciful words, then this is like a testimonial by itself. =]
hope im not just "seems like" but is actually the case.

Life is Simple but human minds are Complex

Wonders if the saying of "through the test of times" will hold true
Sometimes, perception is cast really in the first few meetups, or engagements
the way u will "look" is the way u present/extend yourself to the crowd
it can also happen in another way. noticeably when you done something out of the norm
one that captures other's attention and makes them think
"didn't know he or she was like that".. etc.
Usually, this will be of a negative impression though. haha

If its one thing learnt in life, it is that it is really hard to get out of a perception cast
very. this is coupled with human natures basic skepticism and the result?
good impression tends to stay okay, bad impressions aren't never gonna turn good, aren't they?
at least that is for most of the case.

sometimes even when one tries real hard, to make an effort. others do not see it
many possibilities, it could be that they couldn't be bothered.
or it could be that they are just simply interested in themselves
or it could be that they noted changes, but somehow, simply refuse to acknowledge and stick with the "usual" sayings
or it could be some theory that ppl will say others 1st so that they will not be e one in spotlight

in any case, some could be hurt in the process if things are not dealt in a good way.
though at most times hopefully, im not the the topic (phew), it is interesting to observe hw people talk about other people and hw that other people talk about people, and etc
its like watching SouthKoreans squabble with North Koreans when ultimately they are just humans, Koreans, and should have re-united long ago. but the human in control make it almost impossible. yes mr north korean president, please fk off and wake up your idea!
and it is disappointing to note that some, for how good they presented themselves to be, hw neutral they "appear" to be, falls into the trap.
or as the saying goes "the Fox tail is revealing.." lol

so usually, people hardly change. they say "certain thing don't change" maybe that is true
but personally i am till today intrigued to understand more why so, the rationale behind it.
somehow it matches up with management studies. similar in a way
classical versus administrative approach.
"what should be, by right" versus "since its like that, i will only do this"
"optimally, we work together to achieve greater goals" versus "we just do enough to satisfice and earn a living"
personally i would relate to the latter ideology/mentality as "weakening of the mind"
ok or maybe its just that im trying, TRYing to think optimistic. HAHA

many variables, one is the ability of the person to withstand "critiques" which may or may nt be true. one more could be the severity/extent to which the person is making the critique
In an idealistic world, one would like to believe that humans will come to understand each other, or try to.
wtf it sounds so much like from Naruto anime -_-
however, in a realistic world, this is pretty much far from it.
in real life, people play politics, they backstab, they "talk" and not do, many other things
personally i would think its essential but only use them when really needed.

Life is Simple but human minds are Complex
trying to understand everyone and every type' is quite impossible
but through observation and empathy, it is possible to understand some traits for some.
It is one of my aim in life to be a better man in overall
status, money, power, family, relationship, friendship, happiness, etc
in no particular rank of order. i'll like to continue to take a leap of faith in all
and continue to work hard towards a better quality of life
i shall not procrastinate, at times i may complain, but i have confidence that,
things can only get better and better =)

Street Dance~

Watched Street Dance! but not in 3d though..
i dunno why, i think i kinda quite like Dance films now haha
maybe the moves are nice =)

Well, Street Dance this movie was above the average to start with
for a movie which was like an appetizer to the real one i've been waiting for,
(yes Step Up 3D!) YES THEY ARE actually 2 different movies lolx, some got confused
It was quite a nice movie actually,
while its soundtrack can't be compared to the upcoming Step Up 3D soundtrack

nevertheless i've found a nice song, this "main theme" of Street Dance
and beginning to like it ^^

URL:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1BkR760o94&feature=related

Lyrics:
http://www.lyricsreg.com/lyrics/n-dubz/We+Dance+On/

Lyrics in Mind:
It’s gonna be real hard
But I’m gonna be okay
As long as I try real hard
I’m always gonna find my way
I’ma find my way

Year 2

Lyrics in mind: You can't make up your mind mind mind mind mind

Start of Year 2, new season begins...
its back up the emo dark path back home after sch everyday.
but today i had some inspiration to be even more commited to making
the minor bits and pieces of changes that will improve my life as a whole

i will be the boy with the smiles as usual and the one to reach out to others =)
to all around me, that to me is important..
often i am overly caught up with "where i am today", my progress,
the eagerness to move up to the next comfort level.
so much so that i forget a whole lot more important things..
e.g my dear sis, she's delivering like anytime these few weeks!

perhaps i still have that tiny doubt in me that i can be a good good guy
(which i believe i am somewhere there.)
perhaps the ever-wanting-to-improvise part in me wants changes fast
(but the eagerness to suceed conflicts with patience in the long run)
perhaps i am not confident or still shy, not outspoken enough
(saying more may mean more wrong, insensitive things said..)
i also often wondered how strong is my will

but as time goes by and proves, im on the right track. =)
now, to add to the intensity.

ultra wudi emo period 2:
27th July 2010 to 24th August 2010 (IPT sessions spread out)
+ lessons on Mondays, Wednesdays, and some Fridays
+ self-imposed outdoor activities like swimming, runnign?
+ volunteer work, i know what else to add on liao..
+ family time
+ time with friends, buddies
+ work, and maybe time to move on, out of the "protected shell" willingly
+ more learnings on trading related stuffs.
+ many more on my mind

shall have to plan out my emo calendar for next 2 months.
this in all surely will improve my time management to a whole new level..

like the thought i always had in mind: this is something i have to take

=)

was happy with myself ytd.
was due to submit June timesheet..
then i recalled that for last month, May,
i accidentally forgot to count one day of annual leave taken
but already signed and submitted

it means i took 1 more day of annnual leave for free
that is If i continued to keep quiet about it
glad i had the moral courage to correct it this month.
on the back of my mind: 14 days, 11 days already taken for exams..
left so little days, if i had corrected it means i have no leave till end of my contract period (oct)

maybe there was still a tiny black dark side in me that comtemplated just "closing one eye"
and taking the "free" day. but yeah, real glad, these kind of small temptation tests
i pass it =)
(but now i have no more anual leave =( )

frontstreet girls

lyrics/song in mind: is this the feeling, i need to walk with?

I Felt My Heartache

went to my favourite place today. i guess too much disappointments
i haven't been there myself since a year ago
too many heartaches today. too many upsets haha
even the world cup does not spare me..

and all these have to happen within the same day
i'd love to be optimistic and tell myself this is life's lession
test of enduring disappointments but all within a day?
but maybe im losing control. maybe..
hmm no, i refuse to give in to these lousy feelings!

many many thoughts whirled in my mind as i sat there for 2 hours
and i finally gain enlightenment on what to do for some of these things
i'd like to believe that i now know what to do better. =)
some problems are not a problem at all.
whereas some problems are lessons in disguise

i'll think on the bright side, say for World Cup's case,
losing money (due to the various upsets) is a small price to pay
compared to the ability to restrain potential losses.
not too much also, at most 500 bucks. limited at max.
this passive learning will be good for future investments i make
yes money management skills when things are going bad.

other problems. sigh heartache, simply heartache.
England my fav team draw 0-0 with algeria
and xxxxxxx, and yyyyyyyy, and zzzzzzzzzzzzz
no mood to mention liao...
maybe i shud try Lawson's favoute quote

I FELT, MY HEARTACHE

Sebestian will change

for nobody knew him, just as he knew nobody

coyote not ugly

lyrics/song in mind: underneath the starlight starlight

3 Doors Opened

lyrics/song in mind: they disappeared now when im dreaming of your face..

Dunno

don't know what to do
don't know what to say

don't know what to say
don't know what to do

lyrics/song in mind (old sch =x):
every little thing i do, never seems enough for you

and

no more, back and forth, i don't wanna hear about it no more

if it takes the rest of my life

its almost 1 week after my KL trip.
quite a nice place to visit/shop/eat good food
Madam Kwans~ still havent tasted the Chendol! hahaha
if all turns out to be well, we could be going back there again in Sept~
Jetstar got package muahahahah

and hell im not gonna shop the IT mall again.
WHOLE BLOODY MALL of 5-6 levels
not even ONE PC game shop -____-
the most is selling PSP games, no PC games
sianz, i was thinking of see-ing if theres any discounted price
if cheap i would have bought the Fifa World Cup 2010 xD

elsewhere, a few happy and sad moments gave me this bit of uncertainty
at least the feeling is kinda not sure-dunno-what if-maybe-etc type of feeling
have to admit a combination of various things have affected me more negatively than positively
But there was one thing which i wanted to test, and im real glad i withstood it
as usual its kinda hard to explain why i even comtemplated that idea in the first place
well well, its time to revisit one of my fav. place =)

Song lyrics in my mind: if it takes the rest of my life.

finally a good break!

Its been a while since i've posted.
hahahaha damn all the mugging for my year 1 Exams
i've never studied so much for a paper in my life,
(and i think it is not enough at all)

one week + has passed since my last paper~~
and celebration with my buddies also done.
hopefully for the exams all went well...
well, POA surely's not gonna make it.
and i have this lingering little fear that Econs can't make it too,
thats if my model/assumption for qn 8 is wrong.
pls pls pls let my answer be close to the model answer!
and it was so sad, i got a bloody unglam red sneezing nose on the econs exams
i used up FOUR packs of tissue during the 3hr exam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nose so stuck, sneezing, cant even think properly at all.

elsewhere, YEAH~ ITS TIME FOR A HOLIDAY !
finally~~~~~~~ first thing in the morning see Kaka's "are we there yet?"
can see tat everyones' looking forward to this short KL trip ^^
Heaven finally took pity on us hahahaha
initially we wanted taiwan but couldn't find the right price
Bangkok, thailand, and we got the Red shit happening
(last heard, Central Mall was burnt down -__-)
and we settled for KL, city-life + shopping + food =)
first ever flight trip with my lunch kakis, looking forward to it

ok, its time to go watch Naruto ^^ v

time to get rockin'

emo period ftw.
its time to get rockin'~
even with limited time, i shall make sure i surpass all odds.
2nd upper is my aim, more realistic and achievable.
if i should fall, minimum i will accept is 2nd lower.
i can do it. Rasengan~

Brave Men's Road

nice movie Kaiji. abt this loser daring to take gambles
despite failing one time after another, he actually succeed in the end
fish the Tei-ai corporation in the movie.
they stamp their employees with microchips.
gave them the hope if they make it thru Brave Men's Road
and crush it back completely when they resort to underhand methods
wicked monopoly sia.

but in all honesty i believe the message of the movie is simple
"do not cave in under pressure, or give in to testing times"
quite inspiring actually =)

maybe in life there are Brave Men's Road for all of us
its all out there, most of us shun it though.
to preserve the very life that we selfishly treasure
the road will be tough for those who choose the uneven path
but it could be very fruitful one in the long run~

I, for one, now firmly believe in this.
a rich life and a poor life, to encounter both is blessing.
rich not very rich, poor not very poor though, but still have a stark contrast
Certainly i do not want to lead too ordinary a life.

to trade consistently. to a first pot of 50k shall remain the aim
im far from it, but will learn it by hook or by crook
hmm, making a consistent 50-100 weekly could prove to be a good initial target~
can be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Infidelity

taking a short break from my mugging for PBF prelims
done 3 chapters only but have taken leave for monday
so think will be able to cover at least 5 main chapters

anyway, was surfing and saw on Yahoo! news on Jack Neo's scandal
kaos.. even him? i mean, he was like a good model for many
especially through his unique take and directing of local movies
which features local core values/culture. something which i admire
and, who can forget the local sitcom very popular then, 搞笑行动.

disappointing to know yet another 'good guy' turns out to be unfaithful husband
this just serves as a reminder/lesson how unlikely things can likely be.
He has a fking family! and god knows how sad/disappointed his family will be..
sad thing, sad thing.
for all the merits he has accumulated, all discounted by one wrong move.
(remember there was a similar verse in Chinese)
poor thing poor thing.

another 'good example to learn from, and not follow..

back to study..

emo period

Strezz... emo period...
this weeks super hectic with training and also need to study
this coming sunday got the OCBC cycling thing too. haha
hardly any time to breathe .....

好累好累

but i shall proceed with caution.
last paper Principles of Banking & Finance next Monday
after that .. really look forward to relax a lil bit before mugging starts
hope mentally i'll be prepared for the onslaught till May

Job too, when shall i change? when shall i take a break
need to revisit my aims in work. Nov try change?
or after exams start active job hunt?

sometimes even if planned, things dont go accordingly
sometimes i also feel lost. but most of the time, theres no time to feel lost!
simply just going with the flow at times. hahaha
i just need to tell myself that: 'you can do whatever u want to help others,
position yourself to be a giver. but on the other hand, no one will help you.
thus i have to help myself in order to help others'. yeah sounds good to me. =)

i have to constantly remind myself, prioritize, focus, determination
but guess im only human, this usual trait of up, and down, and then up, and down
kena whacked, then try hard, then slacken kena whacked, then comeback
hahaha

"人总是犯贱, All along, if It shud have been like this.. then what should have been... have been not.. Must kena jialat jialat then will really seek change. HaHa "

but thx for the whacking, no whack no gain~!
it is after whacking then u roughly know how to siam or reduce the pain
it shall be more studies sessions and less games
not to the extent of no-life study but really have to focus more this time

chiong ftw ~

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentines'

hahaha what a coincidence. and i just noticed it last Fryday
that firstly TheLostHeaven, stays at 1xx Punggol Field area.
guess what, the next person i would like also moved to that exact area!
also 100+ Punggol Field area, in fact just opposite!
wtttfffffffff
I'm subconsciously fated to be fond of girls who stay in Punngol Field area?
hahahahaha..

Anyway Happy Chinese New Year & Valentines' to all the cherished ones around me!
may the New Year bode well and all things go smoovely~!

Overwhelming Challenges

just added and customized ChartNexus a little
created the watchlist for Straits Times Index (Chart Nexus didnt have)
and now creating an additional list of "worth-looking-at" stocks
hahah the list is called bRaVo-Y2K LOLx

such a small customization also took time to set up..
i still have 4 sets of about 10+ pages of CFD notes to re-read
and make sure i fully comprehend..
its definite a Must as i just topped up my CFD account
& ready to start CFD trading after soccer stabilized/cashback most
oh yah, and how can i forget, the ChartNexus "learning page"
it contains quite a good summary of about 10+ of most commonly used indicators
also MUST read up. wow so much to read up and learn

this, apart from the Econs, Maths/Stats, PBF & POA that i have to revise
apart from the shopping to do for Chinese New Year and spring cleaning..
apart from the various random activities scheduled ahead,
apart from my school studies/nite classes,
apart from my time with family and friends,
apart fom my rest time.. etc etc, what else what else?!
OMG, so much things to do and learn, so little time to do so.....

but i shall be Superman.. my Will of Fire is Strong!
I will chut mass Kage Bunshin No Jutsu
I will never give up!
Fire Tiger ftw~

Tiger

for the new Tiger year coming,
best to keep low profile.
it applies for me too, a Fire tiger.

i dont care if its 1st half of year -wood element
or 2nd half - metal element or viceversa
i'm a Fire tiger. and what i see is: Fire can burn wood and melt metal

the trick is to keep defensive stance and low profile.
yes, so it shall be.

mug in silence, research in silence, trade in silence, "gamble in silence"
lolx. maybe the results will be better?
(Oh shiet.. im becoming more "pangtat"/superstitious)

Brand New Year~

New Year already, first blog of this year

its time to stay resolute, and fulfil my, umm resolutions.

i had a quick look/reflection at the year
and i realised my mind was weakening towards the end of the year
the mental state was no good. and physically the part time studies are slowly wearing me down
i started to slack more, and have more "weak"/"undesirable" mentality

thank god that i am able to feel it. and galvanise my thots

time to stay focused! even if results still not as expected, no regrets
time to continue my pursuit in knowledge for investment
time to continue my drive for work.

time to do tajuu Kage Bunshin No Jutsu~
my road is tougher, but more fruitful.