Mind & Heart

juz finished Naruto Shippuden hehe
kakashi's Chronicles, story of how he got his sharingan
another meaningfull filler in my opinion :)
its 3am and i should be slapping myself for staying up so late =/

meaningful quote i've mentioned recently
mind & heart > face to face > voice > IM > sms > email.

often times i just see perceived images, or brave fronts, & not e 1st or 2nd tier
voices, talks, typing, etc are communication, yet no direct link
sometimes i wonder if i have tried enough, i wonder about what to do
especially so when i try to care, and share.
i think about how much further i can keep trying,
but i think sometimes life is unfair -> it doesnt give u straightforward answers

EQ wise i already believe i should be stable enough to withstand
thots for me are just thots which are inner controlled and
such emotions can be formed & dispelled at will.
for things controllable, its probably all good, going okay, with no major screwup
for things uncontrollable... sometimes, maybe just sometimes....
i wonder if i need to do a reality check...

sometimes, life can be so simple and heart-felt.
its really just up to us to be honest and truthful to ourselves.

心雨

方文山 really produces nice lyrics..

another nice song, discovered late, as always by me =x

Chorus: 心雨 by周杰伦
词:方文山曲:周杰伦

心里的雨倾盆的下
也沾不湿她的发
泪晕开明信片上的牵挂
那伤心原来没有时差

心里的雨倾盆的下
却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的枝桠
也冷却了我手中的鲜花

no wonder some of jay zhou's songs have been specially chosen
for Chinese Literature in some schs in China, haha

Determination

woah, tired tired. had a fun filled saturday.
i guess this form of saturdays, more of such days,
will do me very much goood :)

the day started when i woke up later at 9.30
OH SHYT im late for soccer, chiong down ~
as always playing soccer is just so fulfilling for me,
played till 11.20, oh no, gotta go back home bathe

i zhao first, walked all the way home from Anglican(soccer venue)
bath chop chop, everything also chop chop
rush down to the Ren Ci nursing home
only to know the 2 new volunteers wun be joining today
so left 2 of us do the work =/

then the staff nurse ask us hang curtain at the new nursing home block
BUT the curtain hook got like, uh, 30-50% spoil one loh, must skip holes to hook
then the contractor come in say: "Better check clearly, we may be changing hook"
then we sian 1/2. LOL imagine this week we hang up all the heavy curtains
the next session 2 weeks later our job become "take down the curtains for new hooks"
wah if that happens i tell you, i will go gaga liaosssssssss
the WHOLE block okays, means about 20 over patient beds in length, then x 2..

in the end we just clean the cupboard and sweep the floor
kaos the newly renovated block was quite ok, but then hor
THEY USING ALL THE OLD CUPBOARDS!!!!
how can sia.... all old and some spoilt liaos... bth
like for example, one drawer, the roller spoil
i pull out halfway, and the drawer fall to below liaos :S

anyway, did that, went off, met ric & gay & biaos for a brief moment
they go watch movie, i went to meet my lunch kakis for Settlers
wooots, fun filled action, and was a laughter session seriously :D
its all action no brainer games hahahaha, esp the Gesture game~
everyone is really "bi shou hua jiao" or hand and leg anyhow gesture liao
hahahaha, and sorry Kay Kay for e "Large" action tat i accidentally scratch tio u
my bad!! >.<

what kept me going in such taxing activities filled event...
hmm, maybe the thot of "all rounder" and "Determination Rasengan"..
from the Naruto Movie but of course! :)
gosh im such a Naruto fan. wahahaha

Blue

shyt la, i saw blue and i cant stop myself feelin blue thereafter

Strength

i realise i need to be stronger
not that im that weak anyways
but, to be even more "zai"

this phase of my life is already to "mo3 lian4"
or condition/train myself to the harsh climates
not too long ago when there were some small issues as well as the start of sch
i realised i coped quite ok , which is good. but somehow i felt its still not ideal
is it just me setting too high a standard or my emphasis on constant improvement?
that i do not know..

what i do know is i must be able to tong a lot of things, heartbreaking or not,
lifethreatening or not, minor or major cases, etc etc.
must be "zai", "eh tong"(can last) or whatever u call it

why does all these thots even come to mind?
probably cuz about 1 week ago i fell sick to headache and flu
i had mc for 2 days and good rest, which is rare
but then hor the very fact that i kena flu for the 1st time in 2mths
irks me.

i dunno whether to look on e bright side tat ..is like:
"i usually fall ill easily" now considered much better loh"
or be unsatisfied that "sian recently got more stressful stuffs and i fall sick liaos"

shyt la maybe its the inspiration of Naruto the anime thats why i start to think like that
wahahaha. ok that is random

anyway its about less than a mth before the verdict on my net profits for stocks
i hope in this recent bull run i can start to make some more net profits
and achieve my target of 3k net profit. =D
i think probably fall short, but if can manage 2k net profit will be good enough also
CAN BE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drive Me Crazy

last week passed successfully, ive managed to churn on the reports!
this coming week's a little tricky though
lessons (working day nights hahaha) is on Mon, Wed, Thurs, and Sat noon.
can feel my body bearing the strain. physically and mentally it is taxing indeed
but well i should move on strongly. =)

going gaga soon. ahahaha
song playing now: (techno Expresso vs Cinderella)
"let me get a little closer to your heart, hey don't you be afraid"
"let me dream a little longer you're so right;
cuz its your love that will brighten my day"
"baby you're gonna drive me crazy, falling in love with (me) is easy"
"stay by my side"

i didnt know such lyrics are found in techno.
maybe recently have listened more while chionging report
anw, time to rest~

2nd "Working Nite"

lol its time for 2nd lesson of the week
Mathematics 1 ~~
but somehow my mind is not on the upcoming lesson
shyt i better /slap myself and focus..

i think im beginning to miss something now
time may tell
but anyway, good news is i hope my reports can catch up and finish
this after the recent data loss. on track to finish by end of week

long week ahead
"tired but not tired". lololol only possible with me

back to school

First lesson of School
my worst enemy in poly: Statistics
haha, omg, not even Mathes first
but okay i guess =)

i guess it really helps to be part time
the class, oh so quiet, no noises
just people seating in alternating seats
distanced by rows, spaces in between
as expected, hardly can identify any potential study grp

well well, see how ba, hopefully in short future,
i'll be able to at least gather some "easties" tgt
today nvr do much work, Escort interface got prob , canot do anything
hopefully every "working night" will be like this, not so tiring

*prays~

Good Fryday?

If life has it its way, i would like to say: 你贏了 loh
today is a damn disappointing day.

- migration of data after e-buro workstation cocked up due to lousy harddisk
my working data ALL WIPED
-the migration of data causes some work discrepancy and its always nt very nice if boss spot something wrong and you cant help it cuz u already did your best at that hurried pace.
- Rudolph that gay cb gave me a "whatever" attitude reply when i kindly replied
"transformers 2 is value for moneyy but im on disciplined budget.." .am i a fren or?
- i gotta followup all my work the whole of next week & prepare to start sch on monday
- missed out on one selling opportunitty of one of my stagnant stocks..
- latest update to my soccer spreadsheet is lost with data also
- on the way home, ran out of value for EZ-link, not rich enough to one shot top $100
- on the way home, mp4 player hang. cant even listen to music to chill down a bit..
- going home to a cold nobody environment, everything seem distant when i laid on my bed

initial thots: sibei sian, pek chek, dulanz

on second thots: this is just a test of patience and endurance.
i'll see what i can do and improvise on what i have.
this must be my one of my greatest strengths

and hope u'll be free on/around your birthday.. if not i'll be disappointed

数到五答应我 - 曹格

Uber love the melody and lyrics of this song. =)


第一次看着你 就为你心动
聪明的我 怎能让你走
第二次看见你 我竟然失控
是我的错 请你原谅我
第三次看见你 想要告诉你
我真的爱你 是真的爱你
第四次看着你 我有些要求
希望你能够 安安静静的聆听

一.让我保护你
二.让我照顾你
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
四.接受这命运
五.永远不分离
那最后一个一定要说你愿意

I wanna be your lover i wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点
Can you be my lover don’t wanna be your friend
给你幸福 和永远

repeat
[bridge] ending with 说你愿意
[chorus x 2]

你说你害怕 因为受过伤
不需要害怕 因为我不是他~

[chorus]
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