for long period i think hard, what else can i do??
sometimes i blame myself for not putting in even more effort
sometimes i wonder why i'm called "retarded!", maybe i am not sharp enought to catch any hints?
sometimes i doubt myself "what am i lacking to make it a success chase"
but i am still sensible enough to know some things cannot be controlled
know and feel is 2 different things.
i realise i didn't sing 晴天 that day in the ktv.. though i originally planned to test out the song
maybe i'm giving myself a chance to look at the other trees once more.
speaking of trees, i think tonights gonna be a long sleepless night..
