Year 2

Lyrics in mind: You can't make up your mind mind mind mind mind

Start of Year 2, new season begins...
its back up the emo dark path back home after sch everyday.
but today i had some inspiration to be even more commited to making
the minor bits and pieces of changes that will improve my life as a whole

i will be the boy with the smiles as usual and the one to reach out to others =)
to all around me, that to me is important..
often i am overly caught up with "where i am today", my progress,
the eagerness to move up to the next comfort level.
so much so that i forget a whole lot more important things..
e.g my dear sis, she's delivering like anytime these few weeks!

perhaps i still have that tiny doubt in me that i can be a good good guy
(which i believe i am somewhere there.)
perhaps the ever-wanting-to-improvise part in me wants changes fast
(but the eagerness to suceed conflicts with patience in the long run)
perhaps i am not confident or still shy, not outspoken enough
(saying more may mean more wrong, insensitive things said..)
i also often wondered how strong is my will

but as time goes by and proves, im on the right track. =)
now, to add to the intensity.

ultra wudi emo period 2:
27th July 2010 to 24th August 2010 (IPT sessions spread out)
+ lessons on Mondays, Wednesdays, and some Fridays
+ self-imposed outdoor activities like swimming, runnign?
+ volunteer work, i know what else to add on liao..
+ family time
+ time with friends, buddies
+ work, and maybe time to move on, out of the "protected shell" willingly
+ more learnings on trading related stuffs.
+ many more on my mind

shall have to plan out my emo calendar for next 2 months.
this in all surely will improve my time management to a whole new level..

like the thought i always had in mind: this is something i have to take

=)

was happy with myself ytd.
was due to submit June timesheet..
then i recalled that for last month, May,
i accidentally forgot to count one day of annual leave taken
but already signed and submitted

it means i took 1 more day of annnual leave for free
that is If i continued to keep quiet about it
glad i had the moral courage to correct it this month.
on the back of my mind: 14 days, 11 days already taken for exams..
left so little days, if i had corrected it means i have no leave till end of my contract period (oct)

maybe there was still a tiny black dark side in me that comtemplated just "closing one eye"
and taking the "free" day. but yeah, real glad, these kind of small temptation tests
i pass it =)
(but now i have no more anual leave =( )