Back to square

back to normal.. im glad im brave enough
i do not regret failing, cause its failure through which i learn..

next stop: Investopedia 101 - One tutorial a day
information overload? nope! i can do it~

next next stop: finish Rich Dad Poor Dad part 3
stuck onto it for too long... last few chapters to go!

next next next stop: chiong revision for studies

next next next next stop: don't look back liao

i treasure friendship more than anything,
if not meant to be, lets be friends then, dont need to hide
im mature enough to know when to give up or withdraw
the important thing is to clarify

though even if it kills me i will never stop trying for things i am so into
to the day i kill my heart on whichever thing, then it will be back to square

Regrets?

i realised that 3 months ago, if say suay suay
i get banged over by car~~
i would have died with not much regrets
cause at that point of time, i have done what i need to, thus far
all rounded development in life, =)

recently, perhaps i do not feel the same somehow
if again, i get banged over by car~~~
i would die with some regrets...
despite(s) a very "colours' added to my life", life
i havent fulfilled one new thing i wanted to do...

the mind is a very intriguing thing
many wonders of an idea came from it
but yet often ppl dun act what they think, contradictory
but i am only human~~(except from Superwoman - Cao Ge)
no wonder i am called "the slow one"... =/

song on my mind: Never Let You Go - Janice


and its the chorus i've been hearing over and over again

what does it take?

not too long ago a girl, forbidden name, =x, kinda said to me...
"wish you all the best in your studies and hope you find a gf soon"
she added with "i am sure she will feel very fortunate/blessed"
it could be just formality talk but i believe she is truthful with her words
i think that sentence kinda, liberated me, deep down in my heart.
it felt like being acknowledged as a guy who is really able to take care of a girl
i knew from then, its time to move on.. and search for someone in my life

relationship to me has been perhaps somewhat of a mystery
and has eluded me so far in my life, yeah
perhaps i was caught up in the trouble of troubles in my teenage life
since then, army has past, and i have grown, a lot.
now i like to use the term, heart and mind, because im so near to finding myself

to me relationship is kinda simple, guy likes girl, girl likes guy
a bit of courage to open their hearts to each other, and thats it~
a bit of openness between them to work out simple, or not-so-simple differences
a bit of mutual excitement to work on their commonalities
so on and so on, the list can be long. but generally:
heart and mind, mind and heart..
it doesnt really need complicated stuffs at all..
it just need 2 connected and understanding hearts/mind.

no needs for the "quarrel will make us understand each other better"
you dont need to quarrel so damn much just to know each other
no absolute need to.... lolx

no needs for the everyday calls or see each others..
you dont need to virtually be there every single fking day...
no absolute need to.... lolx

no needs for the "get liao must maintain" & you becoming the "only scope"
there should always be trust and freedom (but also must be balanced la)
no absolute need to be selfish to want to keep all to yourself
(if the girl is so into you, you dont need to do anythin, she'll also find you, tio bo(right?)

no needs for many many things,
life is complicated and vexing as it is..
why should love be as tiring and vexing as well??

personally, my idea of liking, then loving is simple
it really all starts from being friends, to understand each other better
then comes a stage where you may/maynot realise you r startin to like him/her
if hearts are mutual, it perhaps take a bit of courage from the guy to ask/hint
(come'on guys, well we are guys we just have to be more brave right?)

don't tell me "easier said than done", i will dare to do the things required of me
as in, the controllable side for me, the guys part..
what is left will be the response, from the girls side isnt it?
and if mutually connected perhaps these questions are just to affirm..

it will personally be heart-melting if someday just walking & walking,
the girl will just cuddle herself around my arms, or hold my hands
that probably will affirm any single doubt for me...
no other words/actions required.. just a look at each other and all smiles :)

All-in-All, the best thing in life is to be prepared,
dont need to feel sad when you lack your one,
like-wise treasure your loved ones everyday as though it is the last
dont go crazy when things go wrong but rather, assess what happened.
this rule applies for anything i guess

S stands for Self, and i would like to quote a nice nice lyrics from the song
Stay the Same by Joey McIntyre

"And when you've learn to love yourSelf, you're better off by far"

Fulfil your self exploration before u start to be involved with others
if you yourself arent stable, your potential relationship will be rocky
oftentimes i see a lot of frens, get gf/bf and relationship so fast,
BUT, only to fall out of it as fast... or have lots of problems which are unneccessary
which kinda proves the point... stability perhaps breeds a more stable r/s
and mind you, not all r/s can grow from rocky when young to stable as they grow
hence the so many breakups during teenage years.

dunno why i have talked so much today =x
perhaps these are simply the thots on my mind which i wanna share
with this last sentence i end, good nites!

i would definitely like to hold your hand someday..