因为我不是他

walking out of a Mini-Toon™-like store
she suddenly put her hands on my shoulder from behind
"背我", (aka piggy back), she said i paused,
and heart slowed, breathing harder abit
and said "hmmm here shopping centre i shy.."
"no fun one.." *continues walking, breathing continues

really sry to disappoint, i dunno why i wasn't spontaneous
maybe i dun want to be in the shadow of another person
now .. am i not bold or im just dumb dumb...? haha

my fav song has this lyrics:
因为我不是他.. haha..

nvm next time can do better~

A 10 attracts a 10

Fathers Day dinner
had a small chit chat with Bro-in-Law Qing Yuan
he mentioned about his passion in real estates
while for me its more into stocks and soccer
haha lets exchange pointers in future.. =)

otherwise, he mentioned sumthing like this:
"see how la, a 10 attracts a 10"
"and in similiarity a 6 attracts a 6"
"u cant really have a 6 attract a 10, will be very hard la"
i proceeded to tease him with "heh then my sister leh??'
lucky hes streetsmart enuf to give a politically right answer.

hell yeah, and hence the need for constant improvement
and i wonder what i will attract? hahaha
(kahseng aka biaos will sure come and say 0, LOL)

2 weeks

i cant believe sch's starting in after 2 weeks time
06 July. test of mettle. but i believe i will come out stronger
everyone have their own path to carry, mine may be slightly tougher

heart and mind

in the short instance she grabbed my right arm in the darkness
and stuck quite close to me due to the blackness & fast moving cyclists
the sudden closeness, i felt like just hugging her and stop there
my heart probably said yes. but my mind told me i shouldnt.

it told me the time is not rite, at least it is not for her i know
the closeness in proximity perhaps didnt mean anything , for now
so i just stuck out my hands to sorta shield her, hands on shoulder type
and swap place wif her to continue walk on the safe side of the road

believe she will be too preoccupied with her other thots.. to even see this post
hope she will be fine, yes i'll pray for her..

i wonder when will it be that someone will think of me =/

"where someone thinks of you, that is one place you can return to"

Friendship?

Theres this ex-classmate, whom i treat as good enough a friend
though may not see him for quite a few months
we have our differences, yet still okay okay
still, regard as a good friend.

he wanted to borrow 500 from me, lolx
(on the fact that he is a business owner(as he claims to me)
i do not understand why a business owner dont have spare cash at all.
500 i definitely do not have in my active account,
(i had at most $300 budget for the remaining of the month)
my other savings were either self-imposed "locked" or in CDP account

so i felt paiseh not to have enough to help. well, money,
money is a sensitive issue isnt it? 500 means 5/7 of my savings per mth!

and so the following day, he asked for 100 bucks (... i have enough.
i lent him. i did I-bank over by lunch. so as to address his problems fast
i help him cuz he mentioned can return latest the next day
so i asked the next day and a few days later and a few more days later
no replies or whatsoever frm then on.. lolx..

thankfully, I'm prepared. money lent = money out. unless is a true fren.
so lets see if this fren is true. . or a 100 dollar frenship>?i will not press much more, lets see if hes "auto" enough, lets see... lolx
i will wait and see, i will wait, let say 1 mth. i am very patient :D
(if i have to pay 100 bucks for each frenship i'll be pretty broke!)

i already thot about the various outcomes and the various actions/reactions,
and i realised im chuckling as i typed all these. hahaha
if it pays to fail, then i will fail more, to be wiser.
just like World of Warcraft....
"You are Not Prepared"

Precisely i am prepared thats why i thot WoW was boring........