i spent more money than usual today!

bought a gift today :)
very nice and cute, and a lot.
wahaha shall not mention further details
have been trying to find it high and low
but cant really find what i had imagined
oh well, this is good enough, at a good price

reminded of some things.
it is decision time. someone asked me some random question last nite
is it better to have chance, last chance or no chance?
given the timing of the question and the period,
i was at a lost of words. hard to explain or describe :(
needed some thots and i finally figured out how i would answer that

good "shou huo" today nevertheless ^^

Roller Coaster

I remember my post before about Life being a Roller Coaster, and my take on it
i havent really lost sight of it.

http://bravo-y2k.blogspot.com/2008/09/life-is-roller-coaster.html


i so wanted to mention this in a convo but realise it could be outta control
i shud just shut up and listen at times lol.
its my failure if i fail to get you to talk

it is not often in life that i find someone whom i want to understand day by day.
bold sentence this may be but its all true for me.

when i get less than positive response
i'll ask myself " is it me? am i nt good enough"
or "did i do/say something wrong"
the feeling, that kind of feeling sets in

when sincerity is met with an iceberg, i found myself clueless

heart sank feeling

why, why is it that the ones you are looking forward to,
are never looking forward to you... am i nt good enough?

the feeling of loss. the "i should have done so feeling"

LOL
i just check ESPN.
Bolton 0-0 Sunderland
Everton 0-0 Tottenham

i was supposed to put 300 on Sunderland and Tottenham
(for neutral readers its no longer termed gambling
it was a calculated measure to buying and profitting
it was investment that was tested and proven Success)

300 bucks would have meant 900+ moneyback for 2 draws
it meant i would have capped the "season" on a high note - 2.5k profit.
but oh well, i was happy i didnt buy :)

you see, i have made net profit of 1.8k and due to put in 300 this week
But, there were only 3 games left on the fixture.
i had to decide if i shud stop input and forego future profits
(profits like this very week which i just missed out on)

i think i was wise not to input. if i had input, and still no draw
i had to continue follow up, which meant more input.
i was more than happy to stop at the profit i had already made

walking out of the MRT, i had to decide.
Turn Left (to meet ric and frens at Fish and Co park mall) or
Turn Right (to the Plaza Sing Singapore pools outlet)

i decided, "to the left to the left"
i was prepared to missout on huge potential profits to counter huge potential choices
i told myself, "if i miss out, so be it, cause it is not part of my "portfolio"

all-in-all, im very glad i made the choice to turn left and stop for this season
i leveled up in real investor thinking~~~~!